Mike's Journey through prostate cancer

2 years !

2010-11-11T13:45:00.004-05:00

November 11, 2010.......tomorrow will be two years I can say I am cancer free! GOD is GOOD. It has been an incredible journey with many ups and downs this past year but I sit here today a very happy and healthy 57 year old man. I have celebrated another birthday, a wedding anniversary and most recently the birth of my 5th grandchild, Katelynn Renee. Last week ALL the Raynor boys got together for the annual fishing trip, it was awesome.

Several men have crossed my path over the past year, Prostate Cancer having become a part of their lives. After hearing their stories I learn all over again how very blessed I am. People ask how I am doing and my pat response is : "I am not 100% but I can see it from where I am". I work regularly (although some may disagree on this), play golf (not often enuf), have been zip-lining and scuba diving in September, walk 12-15 miles a week and have even taken up tennis on occassion. ALL the parts seem to work OK for now and my last scan showed "undetectable" on my P.S.A. levels.

My story is the exception I think, so many others have very different stories. I was fortunate to have been detected early and so blessed to have a great staff of Docs and medical professionals working with me. Dr Polsky - He's da man! Nicole...you are so good and so patient and so kind and I know you will only get better. Two of the angel that made this journey a little less rocky!

So, guess I will come back again next year to fill you in. Till then, I remain thankful, I take the little blue pills like the doc said do for another year (studies now show it takes up to 3 years for complete nerve rehabilitation) and live my life out loud soaking in ALL the joys it has to offer.

MEN....GET YOUR EXAMS !!! Families....make them get their exams, if not for themselves, tell them to do it for YOU !

Love to ALL.... Thank You Lord for YOUR Blessings on Me. MR

Happy New Year

2009-12-28T08:54:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

HAPPY NEW YEAR! WoW, what a year it has been too. I continue to be asked "how are you"? I can only say "I am not quite 100% but I can see 100% from where I am". That being said, last night was a new event in my life. I dreamed I was peeing and sure enough when I woke, I had in fact peed in the bed! Needless to say I was disturbed and didn't sleep much the rest of the night. I have an appointment with Doc Polsky next Monday and we will "chat" about that little issue then. I am suspecting it will fall within the bounds of "a reasonable expectation". Anyway, I am not going to fret about it for now and am hopeful it is a one time incident.

Spent alot of time traveling over this past week and a half with no issues. I did cath myself once with no problems. The frequency of trips to the bathroom remain a concern and when the light turns green, it definitely means it's time to go! So far as erectile function is concerned, I think it continues to move slowly in the right direction (no pun intended) and again, I remain hopeful and confident it to will return to normal for a man my age.

Yes, the journey continues. I suppose it always will be a continuing process. I know I am blessed and am NOT one of the 20,000+ men who lost their battle with prostate cancer this year, my family is not one of 20,000+ who mourn the loss of a loved one. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE know your scores guys, get checked if you are 50 years old or have a family history.

It is my prayer that 2010 will bring each and every one or you and your families health and prosperity. May it bring us closer as a global community to improvements in detection and treatment of prostate cancer and ALL other forms of cancer that take many lives every day.

Thank you for your prayers and love......thank you Lord for Your blessings on me.

Happy New Year, Mike

One Year Cancer Free

2009-11-12T08:10:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Hope all is well with you and yours. The seasons have changed since I last posted on here and we are looking forward to the Holidays of Thanksgiving and Christmas. Today is just another block on the calendar page for many. For me, it is more important than my birthday, or anniversary or any other special event that has been a part of my journey for 56+ years. Today I celebrate being cancer free for one year. One year ago, right now, I was in surgery, the first steps of a journey that I could not have imagined. Friends (like family) were there with me, encouraging me, praying for me, reassuring me that all would be well ~ they were right. Remembering it all now brings me to tears but they are good tears, it was a time that God showed his love and his mercy and his face to me in so many ways, with so many people. I have re-read this blog a few times and I would encourage you who have walked with me this past year to read it again too. What a great testimony to the power of God. I will not revisit it all on here, I just want you to know what is happening in my life one year later.......... last week I was at the coast with my children and grandchildren fishing. There were no catheters or bathroom runs every 15 minutes like last year. It was great. I didn't catch the biggest nor the most fish but I was there! Life has not been perfect for the past year but IT HAS BEEN !!! Everyday another man is diagnosed with prostate cancer, another man dies from this cancer, another family is devastated. I am blessed, I am one of the "good" statistics. It is time on this journey to say some thank yous. As I read through this blog, that was the one thing I seemed to overlook the most. First of all, I thank GOD for his blessings on me. God has shown up and showed off in so many ways. My family, Brenda did things I would have never guessed she was capable of, perhaps things she never dreamed she was capable of. As much as she loves her sleeep, she spent many a sleepless night to honor her vows, keep her committments and provide the care I needed when I needed it. My sons and their families. They spent Thanksgiving last year in the hospital with me, all of them. Their love and support have meant so much. Moma and Daddy, both dealing with their own medical issues, praying for me everyday, calling often and of course, doing what parents do best, worry about their babies. My brother Dean and wife Rita. They too were miles away in Texas but never failed to call and offer their support and love. Caught in the middle with his Daddy and his brother both in the hospital, Dean did what he thought was best for us all and held our family together when it looked like we were all gonna crumble. My "Florida" family of inlaws who kept the phone lines busy and stood ready to come if asked to do whatever it would have taken to make things better. For my friends, friends like family who were there to feed me ice chips, help in the house when I was weak, keep me company in the hospital, take care of our house, take care of my wife, do the things that only a true friend would do. Dr. Stewart Polsky, the man who literally saved my life. The one thing I asked of him in the beginning was if he would be with me through the whole process. He said he would be my guy through it all.....he was! He dealt with dozen of questions, multiple visits before and after surgery and even understood the tears when it seemed things were almost more than we could bear. He said there would come a better time...that time has arrived. Nicole, Doc's "Gal Friday" who was there for every visit and became not only my primary care giver and doc's assistant for all those visits but she is a person I have come to call my friend. I suspect there are others who have given, some I can't remember, others who never wanted me to know. All I can say now is THANK YOU.

Doctors and medicine are wonderful and powerful things. The support of family and friends is immeasurable. The power of faith and prayer is endless. The belief that you will be OK, you will be a survivor, you are on this earth for a reason and an attitude that always sees the glass half full, these are the things that in my opinion make the difference.

Prostate cancer is not a dead end, it is a detour. I have been on a detour for a year but I can see the main road again. I still have to cath myself each week, I still take medicines but I see a road ahead, not perfectly straight or without curves or potholes, but a road that leads to a much better place.

Brothers, get yourselves checked, know your scores, know your body, arm yourself with knowledge of this disease. Prepare yourself for battle and go into it with the attitude that defeat is not an options. Embrace your family and friends and even more, let them embrace you. Believe that God created you for a reason, a special purpose. Don't be afraid to cry, don't be afraid to laugh. Don't try to predict the future, look forward to it and wake every day in the awareness that you can make a difference in this world.

I will keep this blog active, I will continue to post from time to time. I will pass along those special moments. If you know of a friend, have a family member who has prostate cancer, tell them about this blog, tell them to call or write me. I love telling my story, our story.

I LOVE YOU ALL and THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.......

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike Raynor

October -- More Good News

2009-10-07T06:50:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Hello. Hope all is well in your worlds. Mine is good, real good actually. Went for my normal checkup with the doc this week. I was not expecting to have the "scope" again but Nicole told me with a smile the just wanted to "look around" and make sure everything was OK. (Not a bad idea considering all that I have been through) I was pretty uneventful, I know the drill and there was not discomfort at all. Bottom line: it ALL looks pretty good. Remember, I am still cathing myself 2-3 times a week and believe with all my heart that is what is keeping things open and working great. I asked Doc if that would be something I would have to do for the rest of my life and he said absolutely not. For me, it is a small price to pay and if I do have too for the rest of my life, it's no big deal anymore! But the really good news: blood test results came back and my P.S.A. count was .01, or as they say, UNDECTECTABLE !! WooHoo, God is so good to me. This was my fourth test since surgery and all is well. I had on my own let my script for Viagra go unfilled. In my opinion, I didn't think I needed it. I told Doc and we discussed the benefits of Viagra with regard to nerve regeneration. There have been so significant side-effects and fortunately the insurance company does pay a significant portion of the cost so......I am back on the pill! Bottom line is...it can only help and will not harm me to continue.

All this is great news for me and my family, the same is not true for many others. I spoke with a man yesterday who had a P.S.A score of 44+ and Gleason scores from his biopsy of 7's. His doc gave him but one option, radical prostetectomy and a 25% chance of a cure. If the surgery failed he was told he would have about 6 years. That breaks my heart. This brother is 5 years younger than me. I hope I can be there for him and his family. I know what my story and my situation is/was but that is no guarantee it will be the same for everyone. My mission is to tell my story, spread the word about Prostate Cancer preventions, treatments and cures. You have seen the banner on the home page of my blog, you can see the statistics. PLEASE do not believe "it won't happen to me" because it CAN HAPPEN TO YOU!! Get regular physicals, have your blood tested/screen for P.S.A. and if symptoms present themselves, GET TO THE DOC NOW !

I know I sound preachy but that's OK. I have two sons and two grandsons who now have a family history of prostate cancer. You can count of them hearing alot of my "preaching" as long as there is breath in me!

I love you ALL and thank you for loving me through this time in my life, I could have never made it without the love of my family and friends and.....

THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME !

The Calendar says Sept., the temps say July!

2009-09-25T06:42:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Good Friday Morning to all. It is the end of another work week and I hope all is well in your worlds. I am blessed to be able to say "work week". It has been unusually warm this week but I know Fall and Winter are just around the corner. Wednesday was a special day, a day I will always remember anyway...it was one year since my diagnosis! I took the time to read the entries from the first few weeks of this blog, yes....I cried again reliving that time in my life. The same day, this past Wednesday, I visited a friend who's step mother had died of cancer. I could not help but ask again, "why me Lord?" Why was I spared while others are not. I probably wouldn't understand the answer anyway.

The end of PROSTATE CANCER AWARENESS WEEK is here. I can say I have not heard a word on TV or radio about it. Nearly 2000 men die each month! For me, that is news worthy! I have worn my blue ribbon proudly this week but will confess too I have not talked to anyone about P.C. awareness outside my circle of friends.

So, a year ago I became a household name to many of you. As the news of my diagnosis spread, God began to hear my name on a regular basis being lifted up by people like you. To say "thanks" seems so inadequate but it is the best I can do right now. I love you all and thank you for loving and caring about me......most of all....

THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME !

Prostate Cancer Awareness Week

2009-09-18T16:46:00.004-04:00

Friends and Family,

Hello again, and greetings from a happy, healthy and recovering cancer free man. It has been almost a year since my diagnosis and coincidentally next week is Prostate Cancer Awareness Week. I would consider it a personal favor if every man friend of mine, over age 50, who has not had his physical and had his P.S.A. checked in a year....MAKE AN APPOINTMENT TO GET IT DONE!!
And, if ya don't want to do it for me, do it for your family. OK! Sermon is over.

Things continue to go well and improve. Leakage has all but become a non-issue for me. When I get very tired or hear a really funny joke, it may happen but I can feel it coming on and usually head it off. This past week I (on my own) stopped taking viagra in hopes of being able to resume some kind of normal function without drugs. It is certainly too soon to tell but I remain hopeful that the nerve regeneration processes will continue without medications. I see the doc in about 3 weeks and we will have more discussion about that I am sure.

With the anniversary of my diagnosis and surgery approaching (Sept 23 and Nov 12), I took time to re-read parts of my blog. Once again I am reminded of how very blessed I am. Thank you all for your love and support and....Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Septmeber 1st

2009-09-01T07:24:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

I hope life continues to treat you well. I am blessed and know it is because people like you have not forgotten me and believe it or not, even tho I don't write as much as I used too, I have not fogotten you either. It has been a very busy summer, Daddy has had two surgeries in 8 weeks but is home and on the mend now. One of the good things that happened (and there were lots) during our many visits to Greenville, NC and the East Carolina Heart Institute was stumbling across a pharmacy/medical supply business that had on hand, over the counter disposable catheters. I had searched online and found one supplier, Allegro Medical, who displayed one just like the doc had given me in their online catalog. After nearly two week from my order date I called to check the status and was told that item was discontinued. Not a very good experience and you know how I feel about customer service. Allegro Medical is not likely to get any business from me nor any recommendations. So, back to the one I found in Greenville.....it was called Healthwise. They had boxes of catheters on the shelf, no prescription necessary and 60% - 80% cheaper than any I had found online. I am going home with two boxes (60 catheters). And...since flying back and forth and having to deal with the TSA guidelines pertaining to fluid container restrictions, I needed to find some kind of sterile lubricant in packaging less than 3 oz. Hit the jackpot again, got foil packets with 1/2 oz at Healthwise.....a gross in one box for $18. I am going home all stocked up! I am cathing every other day and everything seems to be working fine for now. I do have the occasional tenderness after cathing but it is short term and I do not treat it with anything other than time. I go back to the doc next month for my routine check up and am hopeful we can reduce the dosage of viagra. Erectile function has improved, not back to pre-surgery status but much improved over the past month or so. If that is something I have to take for the rest of my "active" life, it will be a small price to pay but my goal is to be "prescription free". I don't like taking medicine and want to get off all that I can. Dont get me wrong, I am so very thankful for doctors and medicine but just want to take as little of it as possible!

So, enjoy what is left of our summer, I plan too. If anyone needs more info on my new friend, Healthwise Pharmacy, please let me know, I would love to share. Thank you for your continued love and support and prayers and Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.

Mike

9 Months

2009-08-14T06:35:00.002-04:00

Friends,

Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening. Happy Anniversary to ME ! Yep, just passed the 9 month mark being cancer free...GOD IS SO GOOD. Life continues to improve and things are getting back to some degree of normal. I am cathing every other day now and it seems to be keeping things "flowing" well. Found a web site that will allow me to purchase the same kind of catheters I use so I can have a supply on hand. I treat it (my cath kit) much like my American Express card...I don't leave home without it! It works, it keeps me out of the docs office and is really no big deal anymore. As far as erectile function...I think it is improving too. My last visit to the doc he asked and I told him it requires manipulation as opposed to the "normal" reaction associated with arrousal. Is kinda difficult to explain but that is as delicately as I can say it and .....the doc says, it is to be expected and things are progressing just fine. Full erectile function, if totally restored, could take in excess of 18 months! Once again, life is good and I feel blessed to be where I am in the process. If any brothers or families need info re: ordering catheters for home use, I will be glad to share what I have found with you. The internet is a great source for finding almost anything you need or want.

Thank you all for your continued thoughts and prayers...I love you all and know you love me. Most of all..... Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me !!
MR

Summer is almost over..... :-(

2009-08-02T07:09:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Yes, July has come and gone and the end of summer is well in sight. Summer has been good tho', and I have learned how good life is.

I am doing well these day. When people ask how I am, I usually respond by telling them I am not 100% yet but I can see 100% from where I am! I still cath myself every other day and that is working well. All things considered, I'm just an ordinary guy who survived prostate cancer and has a pretty good life. That said, I thot I would use this posting to list some of the things I can and have done since my treatments/surgeries.....just so other men and their families know that life can and does go on after P.C.

Though I did have a catheter for 6 weeks, I don't have one now.
I can play golf most anytime I want too. (and is most always pretty ugly!)
I can fish with my children and grandchildren at the beach.
I can lay on the beach, have a beer and look like just another fat guy enjoying himself.
I can play with my grand-daughters and a can of silly string.
I can get up at 4:00am to go fishing with my boys.
I can still do the "hula-hoop" on my Wii (up to almost 2000)
I can work everyday in the heat and sun. (altho I dont like too so much)
I can go to the pool with my dear friend and her children and play for an afternoon.
I can attend church, lead Sunday School class and sing in the choir.
I can fly to Texas and spend a weekend with my brother and his wife floating in their pool.
I mow my yard (and weed-eat and trim the sidewalks and driveways)
I can go to the grocery store.
I can take my parents to the doctor.
I can be the designated "hushpuppy and french fry cooker" for a fish fry at the boss's house.
I can kneel and pray.
I can build a bird feeder for my yard.

Friends, there is not much if anything I CAN'T do now, eight months after my surgery for cancer. I know I am blessed and there are those who are not able to include some of the things I have above on their "can do" lists. It didn't all come in a day, or a week, or a month...and somethings are still finding their way back to normal. My point in saying this here and now is to let ALL my brothers and their families know that a little gland the size of a walnut is NOT your brain nor your heart nor your soul. You can be the same man and husband and father and person you were before your diagnosis and treatment. Set your own goals, plot your own course. Don't "what if" yourself into settling for less than you can be. God created every one of us uniquely different to fulfill a special purpose. Our job is to keep climbing the mountains in life...God will let us know when we need to stop!

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me MR

More Good News.....

2009-07-09T18:47:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Happy July and summer to ALL. Yes, I know it has been a long time since my last entry. Life got crazy a few weeks ago, Daddy had open-heart surgery, triple by-pass. It was a very physically and emotionally draining experience but all is well now. I didn't get much sleep for 3-4 days but ALL has turned out well, Daddy is doing good right now and I am doing just fine too. First of all, I am less than a week from celebrating 8 months cancer free and yesterday got my lab report that my blood test showed my PSA level as NOT DETECTABLE. GOD IS GOOD ! Prostate cancer can and does masticize into cancer in other parts and organs in the body not me! Not today. No signs that any little cancer cells escaped from the prostate and my system is clean of any cancer cells.

Just as the doc has promised, life is slowly getting back to normal. I am working regularly, playing golf regularly (though badly), work in my yard, have ridden a jet ski for the first time in my life and look forward to a good month with weekends at the beach.

Life does exist after prostate cancer and that message cannot be overstated. Too many men opt to do nothing for fear the cure is worse than the disease. It is my prayer that all men 50 years or older or with a family history of P.C. will get checked TODAY !

Again, I apologize for not updating my blog earlier. I will confess that when life is going OK and things are so busy, it is easy to allow my blog to slip down the priority list. I read it often and remember the bad days in the months past but also see the miracles and blessings of ALL OF YOU, your love and prayers. Thank you so very much and......

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Ugh...trouble during the night, but a good ending...

2009-06-15T21:02:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Hello Friends and Happy June again. Man o Man was it a hot, humid one today.

Woke up this morning about 2:00am and needed to pee. Staggered into the can and tried but no pee-pee was happenin'. I immediately got my trusty catheter and within a few seconds, life was good again. Off to bed and back to sleep only to wake again about 5:00 with the same urge and the same urge and the same result (or lack of one). Once again called in the "cath crew" and life was good again. I was a bit concerned and decided to stay up and see what would happen if I hydrated myself good...coffee, juice, etc. Before leaving for work I went 2 more times and things were working well. It was a day of urgencies and frequencies but atleast I could go. I am not sure what happened or what is going on. I can feel a minor obstruction when I cath and need to apply a bit of pressure to get fully into my bladder but it works and for now..THAT IS GOOD !
I am not scheduled to return to Doc Polsky for a month and am hopeful things will get better. I am so blessed that I have been able to do this for myself. Thanks for Doc and Nicole for showing me and providing the catheters. I am getting better each time I have to do it and is almost a natural thing..the key word being ALMOST. I plan to change my routine and do my cathing in the mornings instead of at night, that way I will be up and active and in my opinion lessen the chances of any obstructions happening. No, I still don't have a medical degree but I do know my body and how it is suppose to feel and when it is not working right. Please pray with me that things will continue to move forward and improve and if they remain the same...I am still blessed, I am cancer free and know that I still have a lot of life to live. Thank you all for ALL you do for me, for your love and prayer and Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.

Mike

June 14th, Flag Day, 7 Months cancer free !

2009-06-14T08:03:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Today we should be flying our United States flags in celebration of Flag Day. I am as patriotic as anyone but the greater celebration today is for 7 months cancer free. 7 months and 2 days ago I had surgery to remove a malignant prostate. It is still a journey but I am so much farther down the road now than even a month ago. Yes, I still have some issues and things are less than 100% but I have a full, long life to look forward too.

Today I am supposed to sing in church, a song I have done 2 or 3 times but today it has a very special meaning. "Drinking From My Saucer", a song recored by Michael Combs, tells my testimony very well right now. I am truly "drinking from my saucer 'cause my cup has overflowed."

Please continue to pray for each other. You may have a friend that is dealing with issues that he or she just cannot talk about out loud. Perhaps your heart is heavy and you needs your friends to pray for you. Pray for the sick and hurting and their families. Pray for our children and our nation.

TODAY is a great day! Let's all try our best to live it out loud! I love you ALL and thank you for loving and caring about me.....and Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.

Mike

"....like flossing your teeth"

2009-06-11T06:01:00.003-04:00

Friends,

Hope everyone is having a great summer so far. I am I think, working hard and playing some and thankful for each day I rise from a warm, dry bed in an air conditioned home, having running water to wash my face and food to have a meal...so many in our world, even our communities are not so blessed.

Health wise: I am OK, just when I thot it was safe to say I am just about 100%, there was an issue. I knew I was not peeing like I should be and had been. My stream was significantly reduced from even a week or so earlier. SO.....off to see Doc Polsky and Nicole. Felt certain I knew before I heard him say the words that I would need another dilation. Sure enough, that is what we did (no valium) and home again and peeing great! It was uncomfortable but not painful. The doc is so good and genuinely regrets any time he has to do something he knows is unpleasant for me. Nicole is ever so sweet, very respectful and kind and treats me like I am her favorite patient....a treatment I suspect all their patients get! Anyway, I am doing good now, cathing every other day or as I need too. I told the doc it is like flossing your teeth, doesn't hurt and only take a couple of minutes but not something I like to do or want to take the time to do. Well, I am still not flossing my teeth like I should but I am going to be cathing on a regular basis.

Thanks for your prayers and your love. Please continue to pray for all of us who have had cancer, for our families, for those still battling cancer and other illnesses, for the wonderful doctors, nurses, and care givers. I love you ALL....

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

Memorial Day

2009-05-25T14:25:00.004-04:00

Friends and Family,

Happy Memorial Day to ALL. First of all I will take this opportunity to thank ALL the men and women who serve and have served our nation, many giving up their futures to insure that we have a future. Thank you ALL and may God bless you.

Me, I am doing well. Things are working very well I think and I am gaining more and more bladder control everyday. Yesterday I did not leave the beach soon enough to make it home in time to use the bathroom, it was the first episode in a long, long time. Why you ask did I not just go in the water.....I had twice before but did not want to get wet again at this time of the day....that didn't exactly work out for me either. I know I need to continue doing my kagel exercises and am certain that too will help with my control.

Erectile function has seemed to have plateaued....if that is even a medical condition? I may need to increase the dosage of medications or may require other therapies. I suspect that will be a topic of discussion during the next doctor's visit!

I have missed yet another meeting of the Prostate Cancer Support Group in Mooresville. It seems that something always comes up the last week of the month for me. I support it 100% and regret that I have not made a meeting since my first one. I encourage everyone dealing with prostate cancer, patients and families to find and participate in a support group. Check with your doctor for information about possible groups in your area.

Thank you all for your continued prayers. Please continue to pray for all those affected with cancer and all those who so faithfully care for those of us with cancer or in recovery.

I just spoke with two friends this weekend who cannot recall when they had their PSA checked. All I can say is DO IT NOW...family members...naggin' til they go !

I love you all and thank you for loving me..... Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

MR

Another Day in Paradise !

2009-05-17T09:04:00.003-04:00

Friends and Family,

Happy Sunday to you all. I trust you have had a good weekend and a good Lord's day. My week has been busy but thankfully ALL has been well. I have had no issues this week, everything seems to be working properly and I have every expectation that it will continue on track. Work was hard and hot this week and my output was less than what I call usual now but I was doing some sweating this week and feel that adequate hydration will avoid any potential retention issues for me.....that's the way I'm gonna treat it anyway.

Spoke with a friend this week and learned of a procedure he is having in a few days called TUMT. It is the acronym for Trans Urethral Microwave Therapy. It was a quick find on the internet and you might check it out for yourself. My Reader's Digest version is that it allows an intrument to be placed in the urethra (catheter) and emits microwaves that essentially burn away part of the prostate reaching temps of about 111 degrees. This is not a treatment for cancer but more to remedy the symptoms of BPH (Benign Prostate Hyperplasia), enlarged prostate.
Let's all pray the procedure goes well.

I was able to attend the wedding of Daniel and Shelley Black (formerly Swaringen) yesterday. It is good to see young people, so in love and so excited about making their place in the world.

There are many who are sick and hurting, homeless and helpless, poor in spirit and means. God loves us ALL and doesn't miss a thing that happens to us. If you are one of those who feels alone or hurt or hopeless.....remember, as I have many times over these past 6 months the words of Paul in I Corinthians 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness".

I pray that each of you experience the Grace of healing and peace and renewal today and everyday. Thank you for your continued love and prayers, please don't stop for me and for others who battle this disease and it's consequences every day. Pray for the doctors and nurses who stand with us in these battles. Pray for the families and caregivers of those with cancer. Each of you who have read and continue to read my story, you are like family to me...I love you ALL, I thank you ALL and.....

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

A Bump in the Road

2009-05-13T06:34:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Yesterday was a good day, good in the sense that I celebrated all day my 6th month of being cancer free. Thanks be to GOD for all He has done in my life and continues to do.

So, a bump in the road you ask? Yea, 'fraid so.....yesterday morning I began to feel an all too familiar sensation and my stream when trying to pee was significantly less than the past couple of weeks. Per the doc's instructions, I did cath myself on Monday night (my once a week routine) and I did bleed some. My feeling is that I irritated the most recent surgery site, caused some bleeding and scabbing and created an obstruction AGAIN ! I had to leave work in the morning to come home and cath and called the doc when I still hadn't peed on my own after 3 hours. He suggested too that I may have irritated my urethra and I should NOT cath for a few days. I went on the offensive again and did cath myself one more time after dinner and drank and drank and drank water til after 10:00 last night, popped one of those pills that makes your pee turn a beautiful shade of blue or green and after getting up every hour or so through the night, things seem to be pretty much back to normal again this morning. YEA!...... God is so good.

Hardly a day goes by that I don't hear of or speak to someone who has prostate issues. I encourage every man 50 years old or with a family history.....GET YOUR PROSTATE CHECKED NOW ! If you won't do it for YOU, do it for your family. Nearly 30,ooo husbands, brothers, sons, uncles, friends, neighbors will die this year with prostate cancer. Please don't be one of them!

Thank you for your prayers. Talked with a brother last night and we agreed that no medicine is as powerful or effective as prayer.....and it doesn't have a co-pay!

I Love You ALL .............. Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me MR

The First Six Months

2009-05-11T07:53:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Actually, tomorrow will be the 6th month anniversary of my surgery and cancer free life but this morning was kinda special for me too. You see, I have been doing my kagel exercises regularly and doing the "start-stop" exercise when I have to pee and last night I went to bed WITHOUT a pad. It was the first time since November 12th last year that I did not go to bed with either a catheter or a pad. I got up once in the night to go and woke at the usual time this morning and all was well. I don't think I will risk working today without some protection but I am excited that I can go to bed and sleep through the night without leaking or wetting myself.

Again, this blog has become more of a journal about how life is getting back to normal than it is dealing with the treatment and recovery of Prostate Cancer. This is a place I prayed for and always hoped I would be and am so very thankful God has blessed me so much.

Am I 100% now....NOPE ! but I am on the way I think. There are still hurdles to go over and I am still on the journey. I talk to brothers who are dealing with prostate issues, met one last week in the doc's office. I encourage every man my age to GET TESTED....KNOW YOUR PSA COUNT! The lack of knowledge about our bodies, men and women, is our greatest weakness in maintaining a healthy and active lifestyle. I won't get "preachy" but feel very strongly about this subject.

I have been on the increased dose of Viagra for a week now and see no significant difference in erectile function, however, I am confident that too will get better. The doc tells me I am only a few months out of surgery and doing VERY well. There is every reason to believe normal erectile function can and will return.

I would like to say a belated "Happy Mother's Day" to all the mothers who read this. The mothers whose sons have taken this journey with me, the mothers whose husbands travel this road too. The mothers who are nurses who have taken such good care of me and others with all kinds of health issues, the mothers who pray every day for their loved ones......and for My Mother. Moma prayed for me every day and I suspect still does. Hearing her voice regularly with reassurances and "I love you" 's was the best medicine I could get. Thank you Moma for being the best Moma ever! I love you too.

It is a rainy Monday, hope we get to work today sometime...guess we'll see? Thank you all for your love and prayers, your support and friendship.....I love you ALL.

and.......Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

A Week In "The Holler"

2009-05-06T16:31:00.002-04:00

Family and Friends,

...or should I say "The Hollow" as in Quail Hollow as in The Quail Hollow Championship ? Yes, I was one of the lucky 2600 volunteers for the QHC and it was a ball. Best part of it was that I got to share it all with my brother Dean from Texas, my son Patrick and ("my brotha from anotha mutha") my good friend James from Dallas. Got to spend some good time there and got in a few rounds of golf this week too. I am not here to bore you with details of my vacation week but to emphasize that life does go on after Prostate Cancer. It was not a perfect week for me but I did manage to do everything I needed and wanted to do. When the urge to pee came on I made an immediate plan for someone to take my assignment and got to a restroom. I did not have an accident all week. I did see Doc Polsky on Monday and everything is going just fine for now. I was cathing every day and now I can cut back to once per week. That is great news. I am changing the dose of Viagra too....I will take 1/2 to 1/3 of a pill everyday except twice a week take the full pill (100mg). I am in the process of getting off of the vesicare and the colchicine. I don't like taking pills but realize too that it is a part of the process and takes time to work through. I am working this week and really feel that things are getting back to normal for me...GOD IS SO GOOD. I know most of this posting is about things other than prostate cancer but sometimes it is important to let you know that life is going on, is getting back to some sense of normal and the light at the end of the tunnel is getting a little bit brighter each day.

Thank you for continuing to pray for me and for all those that are fighting this battle. Remember their families and support systems.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me....... Mike

A VERY good week....looking for another

2009-04-26T06:27:00.002-04:00

Hello Friends and Family,

Yes, another week has passed and a good one it has been too. I am doing so good, thanks for all your thoughts and especially your prayers. The surgery seems to have corrected the issues of blockages and retention and when it comes to peeing, things work perfectly. There are still some minor control issues and leakage but that too is getting better and I am doing my "exercises" even as I type this! Erectile function is progressing and the doc has given me samples of Cialis to try and see if there is any difference. After a week or so, I see no obvious difference.

This week will be a good gauge as to how much strength I have back. I will be working as a volunteer at the Quail Hallow Championship and playing golf every day Wed - Sun with my family in from Dallas, TX. I did work a full hard day on Thursday and Friday and by Friday nite, was passing a little blood but none since. Perhap it was an isolated incident ....that's my story and I'm sticking to it !

Thank you ALL for your continued prayers. Please continue to pray for all those that are sick and hurting and especially those dealing with Prostate Cancer. You are the greatest friends and family a man could have. Enjoy the beautiful weather..... thank you again for your love and prayers and..

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

2009-04-19T09:08:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Good Sunday morning...this is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!

Sorry I have not updated this blog in a few days but it was by design. I wanted to wait and see just how things were gonna be and how successful I might guage the most recent surgery. Well, I am happy to report....IT IS GREAT ! I am able to pee like I did several years ago, before BPH became an issue and certainly better than any time since surgery. I kept the catheter til Friday morning. It was like Christmas morning for me..got up and was setting on ready to get it out. We (B and me) irrigated the catheter and put one syringe full into my bladder, deflated the balloon that holds the cath in place in my bladder and then pulled it out uneventfully. I promptly eliminated (peed) out the same about that was put in with the syringe. Since then, things are working great. I have had some leakage issues and really need to concentrate on my kagel exercises to strengthen the muscles that allow me to "hold it" til I can get to a toilet. I am confident it too will happen. There has been some burning and soreness but nothing bad at all. I have mowed the lawn, worked outside and done most anything I want without a problem...GOD IS SO GOOD !

Am off to church and Sunday School now, confident that I am running full speed on the road to complete recovery. I am however mindful of the many men and families that are still suffering with prostate cancer and related issues that has turned their worlds upside down. Please pray with me for those in need of healing and wholeness.

Thank you ALL for your love and prayers and... Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.

Mike

Just another day of surgery.....

2009-04-15T18:16:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

I'm home again, safe and sound, my little friend (a catheter) tagging along beside me and doing quite well I think. The surgery was pretty much routine and I feel pretty good...just a bit tired and sleep comes easier than usual when I sit down. God is so good and blesses me in so many, many ways. Thanks to all of your for your prayers. Thanks to B and David and Rick for being there at the hospital and....Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.
Mike

Surgery Eve (again)

2009-04-14T23:07:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Well, it is just after 11:00 on Tuesday nite and about 12 hours from my date with Doc Polsky in the O.R. at Lake Norman Regional. I am a tiny bit anxious but very pleased that we are getting something done that I believe will get me one step closer to normal again. The "stuff" that blocks my urethra at the neck of my bladder is going to be removed tomorrow. Whether by scalpel or by laser I am not certain. I have 100% faith and trust that Doc Polsky will do whatever is best.
So, I will be down for a day or maybe two, I will have my old friend "Mr Catheter" tagging along when I come home but just a short visit I hope, a day or two.

Please keep me and the docs in your prayers. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful Family in the Faith....I love you ALL.

I hope to be able to update you tomorrow evening with some good news but dont fret if it takes me an extra day or two. II Corinthians 12:9 reminds me of WHO is in total control and
Romans 8:28 assures me that everything will be OK.

Talk to you again soon......in the mean time...

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Mike

UPDATE: April 13th

2009-04-13T17:03:00.002-04:00

Friends

Saw the doc today and had the scope procedure done and we have agreed that we need to get that "stuff" out of me. So, on Wednesday morning I will have a procedure, under anesthesia to have this blockage removed by laser. I am 100% OK with this plan and remain hopeful it will take care of this issue I have been dealing with for months.

Please keep me and the doc and nurses in your prayers. I am excited about getting this part of the journey behind me.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
MR

If April Showers.......

2009-04-13T08:40:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

If April showwers bring May flowers.....we are gonna be seeing ALOT of flowers next month! Rain is good, I'm not complaining. Well, let's see....s'been a week since my last entry and do believe it was before the NORTH CAROLINA TARHEELS became National Champs. (just in case anyone did not know) Enuf said about that !

It has been an OK week. I am still having to cath myself atleast twice a day and some times as much as 4 times. It is not painful nor uncomfortable now, I got it down to a science. BUT....I should not have to do this so often! I actually took my "cath kit" to work with me and had to do it at work one day. The kids came in this weekend for Easter and the "boys" played golf on Saturday. I made it through 14 holes before I shut down and the discomfort was more that I could deal with so we left. I got home, was able to cath myself and things were OK for the rest of the day/night. Yesterday I was going about every 10 minutes and finally had to cath again. I am thinking I need to talk to the doc again and make some arrangements to get things "fixed" up there. I just dont have alot of confidence the material blocking my urethra is going to desolve and go away on it's own. Am thinking I may go and see my favorite doc again today or this week?

All other things in life are OK. Did you see the bunny this past week....No, not the Easter Bunny, the Energizer Bunny in the full moon! But I hope you saw the Easter Bunny too. He visited our house this weekend (the kids were here)....don't you think they should make those Reese's peanut butter eggs all year?

OK, time to go and try to do something today. It is raining so can't go to work but there is plenty to do here. Hope you all have a wonderful day. Tell someone you love them....I know it will make them smile. I LOVE ALL OF YOU !

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me............................. Mike

No Big Deal...but the valium was great......AGAIN !

2009-04-06T16:28:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Hope life is treating everyone well. I am OK too. Went to see my favorite Doc today and I never even had to take my britches off! I have been cathing myself everyday for almost two weeks now and yesterday began a 6 cath day for me, having alot of problems keep a flow going. The scar tissue (obstruction) in my urethra is being stubborn and not dissolving as quickly as was expected or needed. I have NO problems with the cathing process and so long as I can still do it, no retention issues coming up, we are going to wait about 5 more weeks and re-evaluate .....possibly considering laser surgery to remove/eliminate the material blocking my urethra. OK, I am sure you may be asking, "why the heck does he not just do in and take care of it now?" Well, the truth is we are taking a more conservative approach as the blockage is very near of part of the area where I bled for 4 weeks causing me to have to wear a catheter for so long. NONE OF US want to see that area dramatized again to a point of causing bleeding that would again put me in a catheter for weeks. I love Doc Polsky and believe he wants what is best for me so, I'm waiting, cath in hand if I need it!

On other fronts.....I am experiencing a nagging little headache that could be cause by the Viagra. It is a common side effect. While it is not debilitating and does not interfere with daily life, it is a bit of a nuisance. So...we are gonna try Cialis and see if it can produce the same "positive" results without the side effects of headaches or back pain. I will keep you posted on that. I am pleased with erectile function at this point and if I choose there are other options I can use including a vacuum device and something the doc drew on paper that looks very much like a "zip tie". Be assured that before I allow anything to be cinched around any part of my body (especially my penis) things will have changed significantly. Right now I am OK with how things are in that department, after all I am still less than 6 months out of surgery.

Time to go. It's back to work tomorrow and hopefully bragging about my "Heels". If I can't brag about them I can always brag about the wonderful people in my life and how much I am blessed.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings On Me........................................ Mike

S'been a long week....

2009-04-01T11:43:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

It has been a week since my last posting, good news is there is no medical reason for my lack of responsibility in keeping this updated. It has been a busy week with "stuff".

On the medical front, I think I am doing OK. It is not perfect but good for the most part. I am still experiencing severe urgency and am cathing myself atleast once every day and at most three times. While it is not something I want to have to live with forever, it is something I could learn to live with forever. I see the doc again next Monday and I suspect we will set up some time to go in and remove the material that is obstructing my bladder neck and urethra. When I do the self-cath, even I can feel the obstruction and a little "push" is needed to get past it. I feel blessed that I can do this and allow for some relief when it gets tough.

I missed this month's Support Group meeting as we are having services at church this week. I hate that I missed but I will get there next month. I guess there is no new news. Life is pretty good and it seems like my daily routine now involves things I never thought would be a part of my life. I wake each day, knowing I am cancer free and THAT is a blessing I can't begin to measure.

Thank You for your continued prayers and support. Please continue. I have heard stories this week of other men who are suffering or have been recently diagnosed with prostate cancer, men that I know. Prayer is the most powerful medicine we have, knowledge is the most powerful tool we could ever use. Pray for God to help us to take care of ourselves and each other.

I Love You ALL .... Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

THAT never happened before

2009-03-25T08:04:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Happy "Hump" Day all. Is a rainy day in the Queen City of North Carolina but we need it and I am sure the flowers love it too.

It was a good weekend health wise. After the visit on Friday to Doc Polsky, things are working well. I have sucessfully cathed myself on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday nights. It is not something I would say is comfortable but it is not painful either. The more I do it the easier it gets. I can do the whole process, start up to clean up in less than 10 minutes !

This morning, sometime around 4:00am I think, I woke and needed to pee so got up, did my thing and sleepily went back to bed. I felt a cold wet spot on the bed when I got back under the covers and then realized too my underwear was wet in the front. Even having had a pad, some leakage got through and ..... "That never happened before". This is the first and only episode in nearly 4 1/2 months since surgery. That in itself is alot to be thankful for .... and I AM !

Please continue to keep me in your prayers. Thank You. Pray for those who are sick and hurting and for the families and loved ones who care for these people in their lives. For the homeless and the helpless, for our children and our churches. Pray for our President and our Nation. Thank you ALL so much for what you do and have done for me and......

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Mike

Spring is in the air

2009-03-21T08:31:00.004-04:00

Friends and Family,

Happy Springtime! Yea...it's finally here and summer is just around the corner. Isn't it amazing how every spring things are just so beautiful after a cold, gray winter? I love this time of year.
Spring flowers and trees, the NCAA basketball tournament......how much better could it possibly be?

Have had a pretty good week health wise. Was asked this morning how I was doing, my usual response is "doing good, but it's early". Have been concerned that my stream is weak and I have had trouble cathing myself too. The cath reaches a certain point and goes not further, can't get it into my bladder. Well....with the weekend coming and Brenda away on a Chrysalis weekend, I thought I should see the doc and see the doc I did yesterday. Turn out it is the same thing, just a different day. Some suture material that should dissolve has not and it partially blocking the neck of my bladder. We are gonna keep an eye on it, I will try to be more aggressive in cathing regularly and see the doc again on April 6th. If things are not significant improved by then, there will probably be another minor surgery to remove the "stuff". At this point, whatever it takes I am ready for.

Things are "tender" but working today and that is always good (the when things are working part). Got a few errand to do today and then a Chrysalis event tonight and church tomorrow so I best get going. Please continue to pray for healing, for everyone who is sick and hurting. For those who have cancer and their families. For the homeless and the helpless. ( I helped serve breakfast this morning for Room In The Inn @ church....I am soooooo blessed) Thank you all for your continued love and prayers and .....

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

MR

Another rainy Monday

2009-03-16T08:22:00.002-04:00

Friends and Family,

Hope you all had a good weekend. Mine was good 'cept for seeing my "Tarheels" lose in the ACC Tourney. S'ok tho, they will be on TV for the next 3 weeks (I hope).

It has been a good week health wise. I will confess (and will confess to the doc too) that I have NOT used the catheter this week, not since Wednesday. I am thinking "if it ain't broke, don't fix it". I have had a good stream and no pain nor discomfort so I want to think I am doing well for now. I say this cautiously as when I said it last I was in the E.R. that night! I feel very confident I have turned another corner is recovery and feel the medications are doing the job. Again, being very frank, my erectile function is progressing well in my opionion. While it is not at 100% , it continues to improve weekly. (sorry Lisa, you shoulda stopped reading before now :-) ).

Call me crazy but I think one of the small things responsible for my improvements is that I was up @ 6:00am everyday last week and have begun to do a work-out with Wii Fit. I usually begin with some yoga, then some strength training and some aerobics. I do all I can to talk myself out of it when the alarm goes off but God gives me the strength somehow to get up and get going and withing 15 or 20 minutes I am "into it". May not be the best program in town but it works for me and makes me feel better too. Now, if I could just learn to push away from the bread and cheese and ice cream...I could probably shed some tonnage!

Hope you ALL have a great day. I would like to say a little thank you to one person that reads this blog religiously.....KCS.....you're such a "sweetie" and it makes my soul smile when you let me and others know you care! Yes, I know there are many of you and I love and thank you all. Please continue with me on this journey. Pray for those who are sick and hurting. Pray that fathers and sons and brothers and uncles and nephews will get their P.S.A. checked every year. Thousands of men lost their lives to prostate cancer last year. Tens of thousands of lives were affected.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.............................................. Mike

YEEEE HAAAA ! Mike 2 Cancer 0

2009-03-13T18:37:00.005-04:00

Friends and Family,

TGIF again....the weekend is upon us and looks like we are gonna be "fweezin" too.

News...News...News... First of all, things are beginning to move normally again down the urinary tract. Got some new catheters from the doc (Nicole) and managed to cath myself and break through whatever it was that was interfering with a proper stream...YES, it did hurt but was worth it and now things are better. I also have a medication that helps with discomfort and eases the irritation caused by the catheter (and it makes my pee a lovely shade of BLUE.)

Now for the BIG news! Got the results back from my 2nd blood test and it continues to show my P.S.A. score as UNDETECTABLE! God is so good. In a nut shell that means there are no detectable cancer cells from my prostate floating around in my body.

My journey so far on this road to wellness has not been without challenges, most if not all very well documented. All I can say is that it is/was worth it all and I am so blessed to be used by God to show off His awesome powers and endless love and mercy.

Thank you Dr. Polsky and Nicole and Candace and the Mooresville staff and my family and most of all.....
Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.

Mike

Cancer - free Golf...it's a bee-u-tee-ful thang !

2009-03-11T06:52:00.002-04:00

Friends,

Yes, golf and work and LIFE is a wonderful thing and especially when it is cancer free. Got the chance to play yesterday and had a great round for me. Two pars and a birdie. I love getting out and playing, just wish I could get better at it. Brothers, my point is that you DON'T have to give up life as you knew it before your diagnosis / treatments. Four months ago tomorrow I started the day lying on an operating room table and ended it in bed in a Critical Care Unit. The journey has not been without challenges but I am beginning to see some familiar landmarks from life before my diagnosis. Keep the faith and believe you WILL be out of the golf course or fishing boat or tree stand or whatever! Just do it !

Still having some issues with peeing but is getting better...we'll talk more later.

Love You ALL........ Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me MR

Summer Monday in March.....

2009-03-09T21:53:00.002-04:00

Friends,

Hi, hope all had a good weekend. It was OK for me, the weather was awesome.

I did bring a "cath at home" kit from the doc and honestly was NOT looking forward to my first at home experience. Well....I did it last night and it was a piece of cake! No pain or problems to speak of at all! But...this morning I could not pee and decided I should cath again to make sure there was not a big problem. Things did not get better as the day progressed. I did go to work and came home for lunch to cath again as all morning long it was painful and very much a strain for a very small amount. As the day went on, I think it got better so far as volume is concern but it is still very painful when I go. I will take an anti-spasm med tonite and hope to rest and that tomorrow will be a better day. I'll let ya know.

Some days are difficult and some time I find myself feeling sad or even sorry for myself ~~ if only for a few minutes. Some folks ask me how do you deal with all of the "stuff" you have gone through. Well, I think it is all about FAITH friends....faith in God first of all, faith in your doctors and medicine and faith in yourself that you are doing the right thing.

You know how a Moma wants to fret....mine is no different. Have talked to her often and what I told her the other day...when I feel like I am falling, the "net" I fall into is that fact that I do not have cancer anymore and how many people in the world would give anything to be able to say that? I am BLESSED....and I have faith that someday I will be back to normal again...as normal as I ever was I reckon.

By the way.....did you see the Energizer Bunny in the moon tonight....Im betting somebody did!

Thank you all for loving me.....I love you back!

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

No Big Deal...but the valium was great!

2009-03-06T14:31:00.002-05:00

Friends,

TGIF again.... I can say without any hesitation that I dreaded today more than any in recent history and said in the elevator going up to the office that another biopsy is the only thing I would dread more than the plans for today. Didn't even get to sit down before they called me back. As usual, the doctor's assistant was so kind and gracious and made me feel as confortable as possible. With my britches off and the cool numbing jelly "applied" the doc came in and the games began! He fed the camera equipt scope down (or up) my urethra and into place for a picture of how things looked and to my (joyful) surprise said it looked really good and he did not think we needed to do any "stretching" today. There was what appeared to be some "stone" material near the surgical site that was determined to be part of a disolving suture material. It WAS NOT a stone like a kidney stone and would probably in time pass during urination uneventfully. It was a welcomed report and pretty much a non-event. Next up: PERSONAL CATHERIZATION TRAINING.
Ugh....think I was dreading this more than the other part but Ginger, the wonderful assistant gave me a play by play explanation of what to do and what to expect. Showed me the catheter, the jelly, made sure I knew which end went in and said, "just keep pushing it in til you see pee coming out". Well, I threaded (very gently) the brownish-red little tube into the opening of my prized personal appendage and in just a few seconds, WE HAD PEE-PEE ! It didn't hurt, it wasn't difficult and I was so proud of myself. She told me that us boys usually have an easier time of it and with no prostate to go around, it was a snap! I can use each catheter for a month, thoroughly washing with an antibacterial soap after each use and air drying. It is considered a clean procedure but not a sterile procedure. All in all it was not a bad time today and the valium worked GREAT! I am very much a believer in better living through chemistry on procedure days. Got home and laid down and slept for 3 hours...very good sleep. I feel fine, had no residual effects from the procedure (yet) and ate lunch. I hope to have a good tomorrow and enjoy what looks like a great weather weekend.

So, thank you all for your prayers and concerns. Right now I feel pretty good but will take all the prayers I can get. Take care of yourselves and each other..pray for the sick and hurting...pray for the homeless and helpless...pray for our children...our church and our nation....and along with me let your prayer be:
THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINS ON ME

Mike

Bar-B-Que...and lots of it!

2009-03-05T06:58:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Good morning, hope it's been a good day for everyone. Looks like a beautiful day in store for the Carolinas. Today is the 50th Annual BBQ @ Trinity United Methodist Church. I am told over 7000 pounds of meat was cooked this week..it's still amazes me even though I have seen it for several years now. Come on down and "git cha some"....bet it's the best you'll find!

The doctor's office visit was much as I expected on Tuesday. They removed the catheter and had no real explanation as to what is happening but we are going again tomorrow and will do the cystoscope and "have a look around" and make sure things are as they should be going into the weekend. I expect we will stretch the opening again too and the big news is that I will be instructed on how to catherize myself...it should be done daily (the doc says). I can hardly imagine that either but he is my guy and has gotten me this far, gotta believe he knows best!
The one question that comes to mind is when I take the valium tomorrow morning to lessen the discomfort associated with the upcoming procedure, will I still be lucid enough to understand the process of catherizing myself? Guess we'll find that one out tomorrow?

Thank you all for your continued prayers and expressions of concern....I could not have made it without you....I LOVE YOU ALL. Have a great day and hope to see ya at the BBQ.

THANK YOU LORD for YOUR BLESSINGS on ME

Mike

Are ya happy now ???

2009-03-02T10:02:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Well, snow lovers....ARE YA HAPPY NOW ???? I hope so. Having spent 12 winters in Ohio I am not in the least excited by snow in any amount. For those of you that are....enjoy!

It was an OK night, resonably restful, as restful as it can be with a catheter attached to me. I was anxious for morning to come so I could get into the docs office and see what is going on. Well....the snow has taken care of that too, docs are not in the office (yet). I am hopeful they will be in sometime today and I can get in and deposit this catheter.

Again, I am not in any pain nor unbearable discomfort. For anyone who has had a catheter, you know it is as much a mental and emotional thing as it is a physical thing. I am a little aggrevated and frustrated but I am confident it will be OK and "normal" is just around the corner.

For all you friends in the Charlotte area, please be careful out there today. Build a snowman, have a snowball fight and get your "snow" fix. If you get out on the roads...be careful ! For those of you away from snow.....be greatful !

OK, time to try the docs office again. I will keep you all posted on what goes on (as usual). As always, your prayers are appreciated. I Love You ALL....

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

NOT AGAIN......!!!

2009-03-01T08:16:00.002-05:00

Friends,

I think I must be getting a call from Guiness Book of World Records any day now. Yesterday was a good day, nothing special, everything "working" perfectly. I even said, "I felt better this week than I have since November". We went to a dinner party last night and when I visited the bathroom about 6:30 it was very difficult, no stream but drops of blood. 3 subsequent visits about 20 minutes apart produced nothing but some pain in my penis. Called the doc and he suggested a hot bath and too limit my fluid intake. After about an hour of that with no results, it was off to the ER again. Prayed all the way there and once there was taken right in and the nurses were working on me in no time. A bladder scan revealed I had about 1/2 a litre still in my bladder. It came as no surprise that a catherization was in my immediate future. The initial attempt failed, could not get into my bladder. #2 with a smaller catheter also failed, could not get into my bladder....a few minutes of discussion between nurses and another try with a catheter used primarily for children and we hit the mother lode and the pee-pee was coming out good....needless to say it was almost immediate relief. Because it was a smaller cath, it took longer to drain my bladder. The ER doc came in, very nice guy and said everything appears to be working as it should. He was going to culture a specimen to check on infection. Yes, again I am gonna be on Cipro (anti-biotic). Tomorrow I will be calling my doc as soon as the office opens to see what is going on.

I don't feel bad, I don't hurt anywhere and have made up my mind, I am NOT going to be held prisoner by this catheter again. I don't see me having it for six weeks like before....but it is what it is and I will deal with it.

I said last night, I think it is a safe bet that more women have seen me naked in the past 3-4 months that in the first 3-4 months of my life! Now there's a scary thot huh?

The staff at Lake Norman Regional Medical Center was awesome. They were caring and attentive and respectful. The nurses, the CNA's and admin staff and the doctor...I feel so blessed to have such wonderfu people concerned for me........AND a family of friends like ALL of you that love me too.

Keep praying please....I will keep ya updated.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me Mike

February 27th...TGIF

2009-02-27T07:02:00.004-05:00

Friends,

TGIF..hope it's been a good week for you and yours. It has been a pretty good week for me..no trips to the doctor's office so that is always a good thing.

So, I think things are progressing well now. I have had no issues in the bathroom, no problems with leakage and my functional stream is what I consider to be good. So far as erectile functions, that too seems to be going in the right direction (no pun intended). Fullness and duration are the primary goals and I am satisfied with my progress. I still take my meds (viagra) to help in nerve and muscle regeneration.

Again, the support group meeting this past week was great. I am already looking forward to next month.

Is another work day, even though it is supposed to rain. It has been such a blessing to be able to return to work. I believe work has been the best therapy for making my left hand/arm issues much better.

Thank you for your prayers, please keep me in them. Remember all those who are sick and hurting, the homeless and helpless, the aged and forgotten, our children, each other.

I Love You ALL..... Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me Mike

Support Group Meeting

2009-02-25T06:46:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

No, I did not fall off the planet and No, I have not forgotten about this blog. I wanted to attend a meeting of a Prostate Cancer Awareness and Support Group before this posting...so I did !

We met in Mooresville, NC last night. I was warmly welcomed and was one of eight men affected by prostate cancer. Anne Hughes, the office manager from Lake Norman Urology was there and a gentleman who was one of the facilitators does not and has never had cancer! A meal was provided and we began a very open and frank discussion. We all have a different story woven with the common thread of prostate cancer. One gentleman has been diagnosed as terminal and another is in his 9th year living with cancer. I am VERY pleased to have found this group and feel we can make a difference in the lives of men and families affected by this disease.

As for me .... I am having a pretty good week so far. I am able to pee regularly and without any pain or strain. I will not pretend that I am not concerned about the scar tissue situation but remain hopeful it too will "fix" itself. Speaking of fixing itself....the issue with my left hand/arm is so much better these days. It is not perfect and I will have the occasional "shock" of nerves firing off but all in all, pretty good and MUCH better than a month ago.

If you read this blog and know of men or families dealing with prostate cancer, please tell them about it. In our meeting last night most men agreed that education is one of if not the greatest tool in fighting this disease. In my opinion, the only thing more important than educating yourself is having FAITH! Faith in God, yourself and your doctors.

Time to head out for work (I am glad I can work again). I wish for you all a wonderful day...a day that you can stop for just a minute and see all that God has given to US. I Love You ALL.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Mike

25 Random Facts about ME

2009-02-19T05:21:00.004-05:00

Friends,

This posting has very little if anything to do with my journey through prostate cancer but.....I think it is interesting and with some encouraging from a friend (thanks Kristen) I hope you will be entertained if not informed by what you read. Lemme know Thanks and Love to ALL

1. I used to live in Scotland (from Nov.1964 - June 1965)
2. I won a National Poetry Contest my senior year in high school. Moma and Daddy have it
hanging in their house.
3. Last month, for the first time in life I did kareoke ("Friends In Low Places" G.Brooks)
4. I met and shook hands with the Dixie Chicks at the airport in Dayton, OH. ( before they got
stupid with their politics)
5. My favorite color is BLUE, not just any blue but CAROLINA BLUE.
6. My first car was a pre-owned, 1973 Rambler Ambassador SST. It was a 2 door, black
landau top and I installed an 8-track tape player..... life was good !
7. My "Bucket List" includes para-sailing and swimming with dolphins.
8. Three food items I dislike most all begin with a "c"... Cucumbers, Celery and Canelope
9. I once shot a nail (accidentally) through my left hand while I was working.
10. When I was living in Ohio I had a little farm and raised chicken and goats. The goats were
named: Flower, Daffodil, Violet, Rosebud, Tulip and Daisy (daughter Katie named 'em all)
11. 3 wishes: Find a cure for cancer, build a school for special needs kids, (selfish one here)
take a year off and travel around the world.
12. I spent 32 years in the airline business. United, Piedmont and USAirways. My best years
were those as a Piedmont employee
13. During a full moon I see the Energizer Bunny. Can you?
14. One of the most special moments in my life was standing on the Heart Butte in Montana
praying. I even tied a prayer cloth to one of the bushes there. Very special moment.
15. When I worked for Piedmont Airlines, one of the perks we had was the opportunity to ride in
the cockpit jumpseat between the pilots.....now THAT is an awesome experience.
16. I think the most famous person I have ever met was Dan Marino, QB for the Miami Dolphins.
Shook his hand and told him I was a big fan. He smiled and thanked me. He has enormous
hands...no wonder he could throw a football so good.
17. I want to write a book. I still have an outline for it on a disk. The name is going to be
"Only Dreams Last Forever"
18. The first time I ever played golf was in Norfolk, Virginia in the late 70's. I shot a 108....
on the front nine.
19. The night before I got married (the first time), Daddy reminded me my curfew was
still 11:30...... and I was home on time!
20. My mother's maiden name is Raynor. Guess that makes me a thoroughbred? (no sick jokes
now, that's not nice)
21. Maybe I was wrong about #16.....I met Coach Dean Smith once, he signed my NCAA
National Championship Cap. Go Heels !!
22. One of the things in life I just love.....CALLER I.D. ain't it great to see who is calling you?
23. Last year I got the opportunity to work as a Volunteer Ambassador in the Wachovia
Championship. I get to do it again this year...hopefully Tiger will show this year?
24. In 1998 I got to ride the EUROSTAR (high speed train) from Paris to London. I fell asleep
and woke up in London.....missed the whole "chunnel" trip.
25. Nothing in life make me prouder than seeing my sons, now husbands and fathers, with their
families.

BONUS FACT: I am cancer free, a survivor and give the credit to GOD for the miracles in my
life.

A lovely shade of green (or blue)

2009-02-19T05:11:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Life continues to be entertaining. I am doing much better so far as being able to empty my bladder....and because of one of the meds I am taking, it is a lovely shade of green or blue or maybe just a pretty combo of both. It is for helping the trauma associated with the cystoscope procedure done on Tuesday. I still have some burning and discomfort after I have peed but the good news is..I can pee like a normal person!

Hoping to be back at work today. I really feel pretty good except for that little burning sensation.
Will keep ya posted on how things progress....

Keep Prayin' Thanks for all your prayers and concerns..... I love You ALL

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Mike

Good News....Bad News

2009-02-18T07:04:00.002-05:00

Friends,
Hope all is well in your world on this rainy Wednesday morning. I awoke from one of the best nights I have had in quite some time, actually sleeping for more than an hour at a time. Went to see Doc Polsky yesterday afternoon. Nicole scanned my bladder to find out I am not emptying my bladder after I pee even though I felt like I had. This is a condition they referred to as "retention". I have been dealing with this for almost two weeks, never really voiding my bladder and when I had the urge to go, sometimes every 10 minutes, it was never in a stream but drop by drop. So......it was time to take a look inside and see what is going on. Doc told me we could do it now or set up a time at the hospital under anesthesia. Straddling the line between courage and being crazy, I opted to do it now, in the office. A "Cystiscope" was used to go in through my penis, along the urethra and into the bladder. It only took a few seconds for the doc to see that scar tissue had developed from the surgery and had constricted the opening in my bladder that allows a normal flow and elimination. That scar tissue had to be stretched. My eyes were closed so I didn't see it all but Brenda was and did see it and said three tube like devices were inserted, each one bigger than the previous and YES....it was very uncomfortable! Good news is, when I stood up and gathered myself, I did pee..ALOT. It felt so good. I am on anti-biotics again, on a drug that should lessen the growth of scar tissue and a pill that should help heal the irritation and discomfort caused by the procedure....and it makes my pee a pretty shade of blue/green! This morning I am sore and peeing does seem to cause some discomfort, burning for about 15-30 minutes. I will have to go in again in a month to take another look and see if the scar tissue growth has closed the opening in my bladder. This time...I HAVE VALIUM !!! Bad news is the scar tissue may be a problem for life, good news is, I am better today that I have been in more than two weeks. Once again, Doctor Polsky and Nicole took good care of me and they make me feel "special". Most every procedure I have had has been less than pleasant (understatement?) but the Doctor and Nicole have made it as easy as it could be...I feel blessed to have them taking care of me. Nicole has always been respectful and considerate of me and preserved my dignity to the greatest extent possible for what had to be done...."Thanks Nicole, you're the best!"

On another note, yesterday I spoke with Anne from L.N.U., Mooresville office. Next week I will be attending a meeting of a support group of those affected by prostate cancer. I am so looking forward to it and working with other men and families.

My left hand. I think it is better and I attribute it to being back to work. There are still some issues with numbness but is so much better than a month ago. I am confident it will continue to get better and stronger in time.

Looks like a rainy day....I suspect a nap or two and catching up on my recorded shows is in my immediate future?

Thank you all again for your prayers and concerns. I Love You ALL !

THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME
Mike

Sunday Morning....Feb 15th

2009-02-15T07:47:00.003-05:00

Friends and Family,

Hope you have all had a good weekend and didnt forget to send your "sweetie" a Valentine's Day card yesterday? My weekend has been OK, quietly spent at the beach with a special treat of having Moma and Daddy and Uncle Gordon coming and having dinner with us. It was great.

On the health front tho, things still aren't quite as good as I was hoping they would be. Phone convo's with the doc's office have left me with instructions to see if the meds are going to work. Well, they aint working yet !! If you would set your clock to go off about every 15 minutes for you to go pee, no matter where you are or what you are doing during your awake time and then set it for every 60-75 minutes of your sleep time, to get up and go pee....each time with little more than a dribble.....YOU WOULD KNOW HOW I FEEL ! It has been awful. I am not in any severe pain, though it is uncomfortable. We, me and the docs, are stumped about it. My urine culture shows no bacteria so it remains a mystery. I say all this, not to foster any pity or sympathy but to let others who may have this particular post surgery condition, I can relate!
I have an appointment of Tuesday to see Doc Polsky and hopefully we can find some kind of solution to this problem. You know how I love to "self-diagnose". I have thought of diet, meds interacting and even wondering if tub baths may have caused something to happen...it remains a mystery? One thing I do know for sure......God has already figured it out and when He is good and ready, he'll let me know and it'll all be OK again. In the mean time, I will celebrate that I am cancer free and I am in a much better place than I was 3 months ago! WoooHooo!!

Time to go for now..gotta pee again. Thank you for your prayers, I love you ALL.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me
Mike

Things that make you say..."Hmmmmm"?

2009-02-12T06:14:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Hope all is well in all your worlds. I for one can say, life is pretty good, not perfect but pretty good. Well, I went back to the doc on Monday for a little check and see what's going on with this not being able to pee like I should. We took another culture. There are no visible signs, I dont have any pain to speak of, I just have to go and go and go and there is very little output. So, the nurse called yesterday and said the culture revealed NO BACTERIA, so ~~ NO INFECTION !
Hmmmm... so what can it be I asked? They are not sure either. The suggestion now is that I have had some kind of bladder irritant in my diet, i.e. orange juice, coffee, spicy food. Yes, I did have some O.J. last week and coffee has been a part of my daily life every morning and no, I have not had any really spicy foods lately. So, I reckon I will be pouring down the water and hoping and praying it will wash away the bad stuff and get me heading back to normal again.
I am a "self diagnoser" and can come up with lots of possible causes for what ails me at the time but this one has me stumped. Brenda tells me I a freaking out over possibilities that I do not know will happen.....I say "I have a right to get just a little freaked out with all the stuff I have dealt with"! The road to ....... good intentions.....quack, quack, quack!

Time to get going. I am back among the working class again (and so happy). Today is the 3 month anniversary of my surgery and more importantly, 3 months of being cancer free. I will forever be greatful to my friend Dr. Polsky and his staff, the wonderful care givers at LNRMH, my awesome friends and family and for YOU and the many prayer that lifted me and my family up so often over these past 3 month. I love you ALL and thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Til next time, with hopefully some better news about the peeing thang....take care of yourselves and each other, pray for our children and our churches, know that God can do ANYTHING. Tell someone you love them.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me Mike

Saturday

2009-02-07T10:19:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

I sit here looking out the window and it is an absolutely beautiful day! I know I have so much to be thankful for. And with that lead in, let me say I am sorry for my little whine fest in the last posting. It was not a good day and having an "accident" knocked alot of the wind out of my sail. Good news is....I'M OVER IT ! I still have something going on, not sure but suspect the U.T.I. is not better yet. I get the urge to go expecting a dam to break and it is more like when you cut the shower off and those few last drop come down. It is very frustrating but I dont hurt anywhere and nothing is blocked cause I can still pee....even if only a very tiny bit at a time.

Not very enjoyable reading today but "it is what it is". I have not heard from the nurse from the practice re: the support group but suspect I will this coming week....I am very excited about that.

Sunday school class is coming over tonight so I need to get some "stuff" ready. Have a great weekend. Thanks for your prayers, please dont stop. I love you ALL

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

MR

A first ....and hopefully a LAST !

2009-02-05T17:56:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Hope everyone is well and staying warm (if you live in the Charlotte metro area). It was a very cold morning. I worked again today. We got a late start hoping things would warm up some and they did eventually. About an hour into working I realized I had wet through my underwear, my long johns and my overalls. I couldn't believe it !! I had already called the doc earlier in the day and now I have wet my clothes. So, the doc calls, wants me to get some VESICARE and begin taking it. I told the bosss I needed to go to the docs and that I had wet myself too. I was embarrassed and yep, I got emotional. Anyway, I got to the doc's office and they wanted to do a bladder scan to see if I am emptying my bladder. I provided the usual sample (a very small one) and she did the ultra sound scan. It showed that I had in fact emptied my bladder - this is good news. So, now the VESICARE will help with urgency and frequency and the leakage issue. I am thinking it could be linked to the infection I am treating with antibiotics? Anyway, it was not a good day but I am working and I am warm and full and tomorrow will hopefully be better. I am not gonna have (too big of) a pity party but remain hopeful tomorrow is gonna be a better day...enuf said!!

Thank to all of you for your prayers and concern. I love you ALL....

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

A New Month and it's snowing again....

2009-02-04T13:57:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Hello! Yes, another snow day in the "Queen City" and man-o-man is it cold outside today.

Life continues to get better everyday. I went back to work on Monday morning. Did some ground level painting and in the afternoon worked on a well house roof (it was about 4' off the ground). Was a good day and Tuesday after our bible study/breakfast I went back to that site and finished it up and.....before the day was over I was on the roof -- MY CHOICE! I will say the guys have all been very mindful of my limitations and helpful in any way they can be.

I told you in the last posting that I have another infection somewhere that showed up in a urinalysis. I am on an antibiotic but I am not sure it is improving like I think it should. I have not had any blood in my urine no pain but I am having some urgency issues like I need to go bad and when I go it is very little. I will be talking to the doc about that again when I see him again.

Little birds are telling me that some of my faithful readers find it sometimes difficult to read this when I get really "frank" and "explicit", especially when it is discussion of erectile function. All I can say (and I mean SAY) is ..."it is what it is". I would say the drug regimen (Viagra 100mg) is helping with blood flow, nerve conduction and functional regeneration. I am not where I was pre-surgery nor where I plan to be in 3 or 6 or 12 months from now.

Some exciting new for me today, atleast I think it is very exciting. I was called by one of the staff from Lake Norman Urology in Mooresville. She had spoken with Nicole from the Huntersville office that I most often visit. She serves as somewhat of a liason or coordinator for a prostate cancer support group, I would guess mostly patients of the practicing physicians of L.N.U.? She has heard of some of the things I have done and about this blog and has asked me to become involved in "energizing" this support group. Needless to say, I was quick to say "yes" and can hardly wait to hear more about it. My mission is to inform as many men and their families of what can be done to fight this disease, available treatment plans, pre and post surgery counselling and help them get through some of the trial associated with the diagnosis, treatment and recovery from prostate cancer.
Over 25,000 men....husbands, fathers, brothers, sons, nephews and friends died of prostate cancer last year. Education in my opinion is the most effective tool in fighting any disease including prostate cancer. I want to do my part....I was given my life back and now I want to give something back!

I will get off my soap box now.....sorry.

Was a cold day with snow on the ground, it's gonna be a cold night tonight too. Please pray for those who are homeless and have no warm place to sleep, no warm meal or no one to say that they really do matter. Pray for our children, pray for our leaders, pray for each other. I love you all and count it a priviledge that you will take this time on your journey with me......

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me........................ Mike

January 31, 2009

2009-02-01T08:44:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Well, January is gone! Will be spring and then summer and then back in the cold again before we know it. Aren't you glad we have that promise to depend on?

Went back to doc on last week with the expectation that all is well.....found out Thursday is not ALL quite well. Seems I have an infection detected in my urinalysis and am back on anti-biotics again. With all the other A/B's I have been on I am surprised any kinda bugs could live inside me. Guess we'll know if we got it in about two more weeks?

I think I am getting stronger and better each day. Went without a pad for a few hours at home yesterday and had not leakage issues. I am being very diligent about doing my kagel exercises. The viagra is giving me some promising results so far but is not nearly where I was before surgery. And on that subject.....this subject was brought up recently on my visit to Momma and Daddy's oddly enough. Contrary to the belief left in our minds from TV commercials, viagra does not miraculously create an erection or one that automatically last for four hours. Medications are part of the big picture and all the other "stuff" associated with excitation and arousal has to be in place too. My pill time is at night before bed and SLEEP. Got any more questions about this drug, consult your doctor, your pharmacist or ask me and I will tell you what I know from personal experience and research!

Hand may be a tiny bit better...am trying really hard to block it out. I am hopeful I can return to work this week without any issues.

S'all for now I think. Thanks again for all your prayer...I love you ALL

THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME....... Mike

There's no place like Home...Momma and Daddy's that is

2009-01-28T15:41:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Sending this update from the office in Momma and Daddy's home in Cedar Fork, near Beulaville, in Duplin County, North Carolina. Got in yesterday (flew in) and have had such a wonderful time visiting with them and many others in the community, I have decided to stay one more day. I am thinking it is a good thing as the wind is really bad today and flying was going to be an adventure.

I was a tiny bit concerned about how flying may affect me and if there would be any issues with leakage associated with the "ups and downs" of flying. I am happy to report..all's well on that front. I did rush off the plane to to the restroom but that is not so unusual these days.

I learned of a friend in town who has recently been diagnosed with prostate cancer and he is weighing his options and deciding what his treatment plan is going to be. Daddy made a call and we got a chance to get together face-to-face for some time and exchanged some information. I will be praying for Kenny to make the right choice and that he too will come out on the other side a "cancer free" man with a mission to tell others about his experiences.

Think some visits are planned tonight and I can hardly wait. Think I heard something about some fried chicken too?

Things are getting back to normal in my life, a place a longed for just a few short weeks ago. Every brother who faces this disease and treatment, every family member who will walk with them every step can believe that their IS life after prostate cancer. Educate yourself, believe in the doctors you chose and trust GOD to restore you.....IT DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE !

I Love You ALL.....and.... Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on ME MR

...as the circle closes

2009-01-27T05:27:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Yes, the circle is closing, metaphorically speaking of course. I am almost back to where I started almost 3 months ago, EXCEPT THAT NOW I AM CANCER FREE. Saw Doc Polsky yesterday and he is very pleased with how I am doing, says I am "ahead of the curve". I can do anything that I feel able to do now....YEEE HAAA !! Means I can go back to work next week too. I am very excited about that (not as excited as Brenda). I continue to do my kagel (sp) exercises, about 200 a day and he increase the dosage of Viagra to 100 mg every other day. I should see an difference in my ability to produce and maintain an erection. That too remains to be seen. I see him again in 5 weeks and if there is no significant improvement, other options are available. We can talk about that later I reckon when I do some more research. Don't know if the average person knows but Viagra is a drug that is very expensive. I did not know if my insurance was going to cover the cost of it and many insurance companies, if they do cover it, will only allow for 3 to 6 pills to be distributed at one time. Well, when I asked the nice ladies at Walgreens to check it out for me, I can get 15 at one time, just as the doc wrote the script and my co-pay is $25. That my friends is less than the cost of one pill at normal retail prices( $30+).

God continue to work in many and mysterious ways in my life. I say that with a bit of surprise in my voice...when I am ever gonna get over that and realize that is not out of the ordinary for God, it is just what He does!

I'm off to see my Momma and Daddy today, flying in today and back home tomorrow. Haven't seen them in so long and this is a good time since the doc has said I have no limitations and I go back to work next week. I'm sure I will tell you all about that. I expect a ton of questions from my folks and friends back home ~ and I am more than happy to tell 'em how it is for me.

Thanks for your love and prayers and support. I told Preacher Rick yesterday, I have experience so much love from my family of friends in my church and community. I am humbled by it every day. Pray for our nations, pray for your friends, for the sick and hurting and the homeless and helpless. Pray for our children and for each other...please keep me in your prayers.
I love you ALL......

"THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME"
Mike

Yaaa! No more surgery (yet)

2009-01-25T20:26:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Yes, went to the doc of Friday and he said he wants to see if my hand will get better on it's on. There is some nerve damage and it does need to be corrected but sometimes the body can correct itself and that is our plan for now. Yes, it does still hurt, yes, my fingers are numb and tingly and yes, I still take percoset when it is bad. So, for now I am gonna try to keep from bending that arm unnecessarily and hope it will heal itself.

Was a good weekend with the grandchildren here. We played Wii for most of their waking hours too. I have a suspect one may appear at their home if they make many more visits here and are as in love with it as they were this weekend.

Tomorrow is back to doc Polsky. I hope he is gonna give me the thumbs up to go back to work. Spoke with Jerry on Saturday night and we are planning for me to get back on the job the Monday after Superbowl, think it is the 2nd? So, say a prayer tomorrow for things to go well and I will be sure to let everyone know what my status is.

Thanks for your love and prayers. I love you all so much and your prayers have made such a big difference in my life. And most of all...Thank You Lord For Your Blessings on Me.

Mike

Thursday, January 22, 2009

2009-01-22T10:05:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Whew, finally got around to posting some pictures. I promised Sherri a long time ago. "Sam", I got pictures now! Yes, 58 days after surgery, I got to take a vacation. Truth is, this vacation was planned over a year ago and I had almost no input in it. That is not a complaint...Brenda and her family made it happen. It was a celebration of sorts. Mom and Dad Snow celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary in the middle of the Gulf of Mexico surrounded by their children and grandchildren and about 2,000 others. So, what the heck could this possibly have to do with this blog and prostate cancer and recovery, etc., etc..... This is what......YOU CAN DO IT TOO!! Was I afraid, yes. Was my doctor concerned, yes. Was my family aware of what I as doing, yes. Did I have any days when I was not 100%, yes. The point I make here is that at some point you have to get back into life. I was anxious and fretted a bit about having issues while I was away from my home and my doctors and my country! I was not the picture of perfect health before I left but ya know what...I was no worse off for having made the trip. Truth be told, I think I may be a little better for it. So, don't be afraid to get back into life. Check with your docs, be smart, don't think you will wake up and be the person you were 3 or 4 or 6 months ago. For my brothers and friends...THERE IS LIFE AFTER PROSTATE CANCER AND TREATMENT. SURGERY DOES NOT MAKE YOU LESS OF A PERSON, BUT GIVES YOU A NEW PERSPECTIVE! OK, off my soapbox now. It was a great experience and you too should make plans. God has given us the miracle of life...live it.

So, how am I feeling? Still tired. I have noticed some blood in my urine the past two days. It is not much and I have not experienced any pain and think it may have something to do with lifting. I feel pretty good and feel as though my strength is coming back every day but notice too when I lift, even a laundry basket, sometimes, hours later in the day, some traces of blood will show up. That will be a topic of discussion on Monday when I see the doc. Tomorrow is my appointment with the hand surgeon. I think it may be getting worse and I am hopeful we can arrive at a quick and "not so complicated" solution.

One thing I think I have begun to notice is that I am more cold natured now than before. I made the comment last night that I believe they got some wires crossed in surgery and B told me she thinks they re-wired my thermostat? In any case, I sleep in long pajamas and still get cold. Maybe I am just getting old???

I think I have done enough for today. It is a beautiful day, I may take a walk. I went to choir practice last night for the first time in months, it was so good.

It is my prayer that you too are having a good day. There is so much to be thankful for and even more to pray for. Pray for our children, for those who are hungry and homeless. Pray for the sick and hurting and for those who are challenged by caring for them. Pray for each other and tell someone that you love them. I love YOU ALL and feel so blessed to be able to call you friend. Thanks so much for continuing on this journey with me.... and most of all,
THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME Mike

Yes, it does snow in Charlotte.

2009-01-20T09:53:00.002-05:00

Friends,

First of all, thanks for checking back in. I took some time off and had some vacation time. It was great, had a good time, felt pretty good most of the time and did get some much needed rest. Didn't take long to realize I am not 100% yet but am on the mend and confident things are on track for a complete recovery. I guess the most important point to make here is .... YES! You can take vacations, you can get away from home and there are bathrooms and rest areas and stores that sell the "things" you may need all over the world. I think one of the most important issues for me was in not being afraid to "push" myself at times but to also be willing to say "no" when it was something I just couldn't do or was not comfortable with.

I can say with confidence that I did not hurt myself or find myself in any situations that were not manageable. To my knowledge there were no clots nor blood in my urine. I still feel a bit sore when I stretch my torso but again, am confident that too will go away in time. Still have the hand issues and see the doc this week and am hopeful he/we will make a plan to fix that too.

So, thanks again for staying on this journey with me. I still get notes and calls from folks who are following this blog or sending it to a friend or loved one. It warms my heart everytime I learn of a new reader who is travelling the same road with me.

Oh yea, it does snow in Charlotte. After 12 winters in Ohio I do not get excited about snow. As I sit here at the table, listening to the television as history unfolds before the world, I see pretty red birds playing in the snow, and can't help but say again....."Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me.

Have a wonderful day.....tell someone you love them.......I love YOU ALL.................... Mike

Another Friday...

2009-01-09T11:06:00.002-05:00

Friends,

For those of you working, congrats on making it thru another week. I suspect most everyone was on a Holiday hangover and getting past this week was a chore. I am taking a vacation next week so there will not likely be any posts here. It is a good time I think since the holidays for us was somewhat trying.

No new news here, things seem to be going well or at least as well as can be expected. I feel I have more control in handling urgency with each day. I have no leakages at night ~ that is HUGE I think. Now that I have been able to be more "mobile" (without that dang catheter) I think my skin condition has improved and I don't see as much scaling and dryness.

So, I hope to be able to report good news when I return. Honestly, I am a bit anxious as to what I will be able to do and if I will tire more quickly. I am hoping that being away and having a change of scenery will have a positive and healing effect?

Thank you all for supporting me, for reading this blog and for your good wishes, thoughts and prayers. Remember all those who are sick and hurting, the homeless and hopeless, the wonderful doctors and nurses and care-givers who take care of those who cannot take care of themselves.

Thanks for loving ME.....I LOVE YOU TOO ! God bless you ALL and most of all...

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

MLR

Just taking a break..

2009-01-08T10:15:00.003-05:00

Friends,

No, I haven't gone away, just took a short break. No real new to report til after my doctor appointments this week. Some good news and some not so good...

Doc Polsky, my surgeon, saw me on Monday this week. He was VERY pleased with my progress so far. I reported that control is getting better and my stream is strong. I continue to do my exercises and he is confident the leakage issue will lessen as time goes on. I had to "re-stock" my pads and for the first time in 55 1/2 years of life, I bought and paid for all by myself, PADS! I chose the brand "Poise" so I call em "Poise 4 Boys". It gets me thru.....Doc did think it was time to work on erectile issues. At this point I guess it is fair to say, I will be very frank and open with the information on here relative to my condition. My whole purpose for this blog is hoping others with prostate cancer and or families of a loved one with this diagnosis will see it, read it and understand they are not alone in the world and there is certainly life after cancer and surgery. I know everyone is different to some degree but everyone should have a chance to hear the stories of others who have travelled the road that may lie before one with a new diagnosis. That make sense? Hope so.....anyway...here goes. I was sent home with Viagra. The whole purpose and intent of this therapy is to regenerate or wake up the nerves that went to sleep because of the surgery trauma. While returning to a "pre-surgery" state would be a great blessing and in many ways a miracle to me, my hope and desire is to just get closer to that "old self" I once was. This medication is supposed to help with that. 50mg every other day for about two weeks and we will see where we are at that point. The plan is to increase the dosage to 100mg every other day until there is a complete restoration or we have gotten things as good as they are gonna get! Doc says this will not be something I will have to take for the rest of my life. (Whew) I'll keep you posted on that front. I have had some small new developement this week, passing some good sized blood clots when I pee. It didn't hurt or anything put a new feeling and a new sound from the toilet and I see what looked like a fingernail sized clot. Doc says it is normal and my system is still getting rid of some stuff. Whew.....

Went to see about my hand this week. Had the nerve conduction test on Tuesday afternoon. It is not a particularly painful procedure, just kinda different. Electrical current is sent through your body, in my case my arm, to see how the nerve conducts those electrical impulses. There is definitely some nerve damage, mild to moderate in his terms. He says it is not that uncommon and the "fix" for it is generally surgery, the moving of the nerve from the outside of my elbow to the inside of my arm so the movement of the elbow would not stretch and continue to irritate that nerve. I see a hand surgeon on the 23rd for a final determination.

So, all is well for now. It has stopped raining and maybe I can get out and have another walk today. In the meantime I have substituted Wii Golf and Bowling and call it therapy!

Thank you all for your continued support and prayers and love. It means more than you know or I have the words to say. Pray for yourselves and each other...tell someone close that you love them. I LOVE YOU ALL

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

January 3, 2009

2009-01-03T10:59:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Welcome to another new year! How many times will we write 2008 and immediately remember it was supposed to be a 9 at the end?

The new year arrived with no splendor at the Raynor Ranch. I was barely awake to see it come in and watch the ball drop. B was sound asleep and the grandchildren, Kenneth and Kassady-Lynn were asleep across the hall. New Year's Day Patrick and Dana joined us and we had the usual NYD fare: Fried Chicken, Black-eyed peas, Collards, Tater salad and cornbread. Yummy!

It has been a good few days physically. There was one fair size clot/scab that I passed but no signs of any blood now. The pad makes it easy to see if there is any blood and I am not seeing anything. I usually wake to a dry pad which is a good thing. I still have some issue during the day and it seems worse nearer the end of the day. I am confident that too will get better.
I go see Doc Polsky on Monday and I suspect he will prescribe Viagra/Cialis at that time. And, NO, it is not for the same things those guys on the TV commercials use it. The nerves that were moved or damaged during the surgery go to sleep. These medications supposedly "wake" those nerves up which facilitate urinary function as well as erectile function. Guess I will know exactly what it does soon enough?

Go on Tuesday for a nerve conduction test. That will be the first step in getting my hand back in shape. I hope to be able to go back to work with Jerry by Feb. 1st.

S'gonna be a great football weekend, hope your teams win (so long as they are not playing my team). Have a great weekend. Thank You for your continued prayers and support. Pray for all those who are sick and hurting...... I LOVE YOU ALL

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

New Year's Eve

2008-12-31T09:59:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Hope everyone is enjoying the last day of 2008....mine has been good so far. We will be have some overnight visitor tonight, Kenneth and Kassady-Lynn (my grandchildren) will be staying with us. I get to spend the last day of the year with 'em and the first day of the new year too.
God continaues to bless me and my family in so many ways.

The healing process is continuing well I think. When I excert (little as it may be) myself or walk much I find I pass tiny scabs and clots. I call it "coffee grounds". It is not painful and is probably a good thing to get out of my system. I woke again this morning with a dry pad but once up and especially in the afternoon, control is much more difficult.

Re: hand issues. I will be going next Tuesday for a nerve conduction test. That should confirm whether or not there is a damaged nerve in my arm/hand that causes the pain and numbness. On the 24th I see a hand specialist. Please continue to pray this is a "temporary" thing and normal life is coming soon.

So, I hope everyone has great night, I for one will not likely see the new year arrive. Be safe in your travels. Take the time today to tell someone you love them....I LOVE YOU ALL.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.....GOD BLESS YOU ALL

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

A week of Freedom

2008-12-29T08:42:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Good Monday morning to all. I suspect everyone is still recovering from the Christmas hangover (not the drinking kind) and looking forward to seeing the new year in. Today, I am celebrating 1 week of being catheter free and progressing well in the process of returning to normal. Yesterday was a good day at church, got to lead the Sunday School lesson for the first time in about 2 months and enjoyed the services without any "attachments".

No doc visits this week, first time I've had a doc free week in two months. Next week I return to Dr. Polsky for a progress check. I am confident things are going the way they are suppose too. Once again, in the interest of being open and at the risk of being too frank, there are some things worth mentioning for the benefit of those who may be dealing with prostate cancer and/or recovering from treatments.

I wear pads to prevent wetting my clothes. There is some leakage issues (normal) and the later in the day it gets, the worse it becomes. All our muscles get tired by the end of a day. Same is true with bladder and urinary control muscles too. There is some blood in my urine but that too is expected. All in all, while not perfect by any stretch, things are pretty good and I am confident I am on track for a complete recovery and normal functionality. God has begun a healing in me and I know he will complete it! I will admit though, yesterday I watched football for about 6 hours and both the teams I wanted to win, did win (Panthers and Dolphins) and the one I hoped would lose, lost (Cowboys). Sometimes a little too much excitement cause by a great play made the pads come in real handy :-/

As I count down the last few days of 2008, I look back with gratitude for so many wonderful blessings. I have seen some of my worst days but seen even more great days....but those of you who know me already knew that too! For ALL you "special" people who have made my life so good, may God bless you all. I love YOU.

Time for this posting to find a good stopping place. I am told often how so many of you are following this blog. It always makes me smile. I am especially happy when I learn that other men who are faced with a diagnosis of prostate cancer are reading this and finding some comfort in knowing they too will be OK. And not just men, wives and daughters and sister will hopefully see this and learn that prostate cancer is NOT the end to a normal life.

Time to go. Have a wonderful Monday, it will be the last one this year! Thanks for praying for me...don't forget to pray for others who are sick and hurting, homeless and helpless, pray for our children and for each other.

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

363 shopping days left til Christmas

2008-12-27T14:23:00.002-05:00

Friends

Well, another Christmas has come and gone as we have completed our journey around the sun again. Looking back and reflecting brings many tears, tears of Joy and Sadness, many good times and some not so good. The important thing in all of it though.....WE ARE HERE. We are here, living and loving and laughing. We have been so blessed with this gift we call LIFE and I am glad YOU are a part of mine.....

Five days since the catheter has been removed and all is well so far. I am still seeing some signs of blood and a few tiny speck (probably scabs/clots) in my urine. There has not been any pain to speak of and sleep come fairly easily now. I awake during the night and feel the need to pee and that is a good thing. It indicates the nerves that tell me when I need to go are working. I have to wear pads now and as the days go on, I find my ability to control urination is significantly deminished. I seldom wake with a wet pad but about 3:00 - 4:00 in the afternoon it is very difficult to control. I believe it is getting better and I do my excercises (keegles) and am confident it will all get to normal very soon. Like I said, I do wear pads in my underwear and if I didn't tell you I was wearing anything I don't think you would know. This too I think is difficult for men to do and even more difficult to talk about but for me, it is a way of life for now and is beyond my control so I have no intentions of trying to hide anything.

I have been trying to walk around the neighborhood daily and do as much as I can around the house (cooking, laundry, etc). I do well in the mornings but I run out of steam pretty quickly as the day goes on.

My hand might be just a bit better but is not well by any means. I will be having a nerve conduction test in the coming weeks and have been referred to a hand specialist too.

I trust everyone is still enjoying the holiday season, I am. Got to spend some time with the kids on Christmas Day. Our "beach" friends are at Topsail for New Years, somethings we all usually do together. Had to pass on it this year as a 5 hours drive would be too much for me right now. I do hope and pray that ALL of you have a wonderful new year.

Remember to pray for ALL those who are sick and hurting, the homeless and helpless, for those away from home and loved ones. Pray for all our children and for each other. I Love You ALL

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Mike

Merry Christmas

2008-12-25T07:32:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

MERRY CHRISTMAS. It's 7:30 am, Christmas Day 2008 and I sit here in front of this computer wondering how I could possibly express by gratitude and appreciation for being alive and well. It is truly a Christmas miracle and I give all the credit to my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.

My days and nights since Monday when the catheter was removed have all been very good. I have had no issues with pain or discomfort at all. I sleep well now that I am untethered and can drive again too.

I have some "issues" I will talk about later but today I just want to say to ALL of you....

MERRY CHRISTMAS

May all your homes be filled with Peace and Joy, Health and Happiness and Love and Laughter. God Bless you All.

Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me

Mike

Oh by the way....

2008-12-22T13:15:00.002-05:00

Friends,

How in the world I coulda forgotten this little tid-bit. The blood work I had done last week came back and the P.S.A. count was measured as "UNDETECTABLE". That my friends is wonderful because it indicates that no prostate cell or cancer cell were detected. I will be retested every 3 month for a while but for now let's celebrate I remain cancer free...... GOD IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD !

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

OH HAPPY DAY !!!!

2008-12-22T12:58:00.002-05:00

Friends,

OH HAPPY DAY for sure...after I had my 4th cystogram, the results showed my bladder was about 99% healed and Dr. Plosky said we are taking the catheter out. What an answered prayer. I was honestly a bit downheartened when the radiologist said there was still a very small area of leakage but not so serious that I needed to keep the catheter. Two days short of six weeks...it had gone way past a physical issue to becoming an emotional issue.

Now, I find myself in some more new territory. I have to wear a protective pad in my underwear as I am leaking as a result of losing my ability to control my urine flow. It is normal and will in time and with some therapy (doing keegles) return to normal. My homework is to practice stopping my flow while I am peeing, let go and try to stop it again. Sounds strange I know but will help to rehab and strengthen those muscles used for control during urgency. I have already started doing it and first time out managed to stop and restart two times. WOO HOO.

I go back in two weeks and we will have some discussion about what medications and therapies will be best for continued nerve stimulation and rehabilitation.

Without a doubt this has been the best Christmas gift I could have gotten. Thank you all for your prayers on my behalf. God continues to show up and show off in my life. I Love You ALL

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

3 Shoppings days til Christmas

2008-12-21T14:39:00.003-05:00

Friends,

What a beautiful day in Charlotte today....a welcome change from the recent rainy days. Today was another good day at church, I even went to Sunday School. By the end of service I was so ready to come home. The cath bag I use on road trips has to be strapped to my leg. Well, it managed to work it's way loose, lots of ups and downs in church caused it I suspect. Anyway, it was loose and pulling on my cath....the only thing holding it in was the balloon in the bladder. Needless to say I was anxious to get home.

What I thought was an infection starting earlier in the week has not gotten worse. I think it is some "natural" secretions that just happen to become noticeable because of the catheter. It doesn't hurt and with this thing coming out tomorrow, I am confident everything is gonna be OK.

I suspect the coming days will bring many new challenges. With the catheter out there is an expectation of urinary and erectile disfunction. While I love that so many people have been a part of my journey here, my #1 goal is to inform others and their families about Prostate Cancer and treatments. So, I intend to frankly discuss how "things" work, never trying to be crude but always trying to be real and factual. Enuf said 'bout that!

Only three more shopping days til Christmas. I think I am about as ready as I can get. Left hand is not any better, maybe even a bit worse? Going to the ortho doc on Tuesday with a hope that some kind of new treatment will help.

Merry Christmas to you all. May the joys and love and peace of the season fill your homes and hearts.

More tomorrow...til then.... I Love You All.... Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me MR

Friday, December 19th

2008-12-19T08:29:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Hey..last Friday before Christmas! Next week this time we will all be on a Christmas hangover. I'm sure I will be asking when can we take the tree down? Seriously, I hope it is a wonderful week for everyone and we get closer to the birthday party for our Lord.

Today I go and have blood drawn to check my P.S.A. Funny thing about that is I should NOT have any measureable P.S.A. Should the test return with any result other than "None Detectable" it is not a good sign. That can indicate that cancer cells from the prostate are in my body and may (not necessarily will) be a source of cancer in some other organ or area of my body. I believe, God will finish the healing He has begun and it will all be OK. Please continue to remember me in your prayers. Statistically, 28,000 men will die of prostate cancer this year!

I am still experiencing some issues, there is some minor sepage from the end of my penis where the cath goes in. I don't want to think it is puss although it looks very much like it could be. I have no fever, no redness so I am thinking it is just a natural discharge from the ointment I use as well as normal body fluids. No, I have not gotten my medical degree in the past 5 weeks but will say I have kept myself pretty informed about what is going on with my old body. Once this cath is removed and natural processes can resume, I am confident things will grow closer to normal in just a few days.

My hand is no better yet, I go back and see my ortho doc on Tuesday. Doc Polsky's office just called to remind me of my appointment on Monday -- like I would forget that ! Told her I am bringing a fork to the office with me...and telling the doc he can put it in this catheter ...cause I am DONE !

Guess it is time to get off for today. I hope you all have a great weekend, I am looking forward to it too. Please remember me and my family in your prayers, prayer for those who are sick and hurting, the homeless and the hopeless, for those away from home and family this time of year. Pray for our children and each other.
Thank you ALL so much....Merry Christmas...I LOVE YOU ALL....

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me" Mike

5 Week Annivesary

2008-12-17T17:14:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Today is 5 weeks since the surgery! Amazing how time flies huh?

Today was not one of my better days. I am still experiencing some discomfort where the cath goes in. Called the doc's office to see what might be going on. They told me to limit my activities (Brenda laughed) and to limit the use of the lidocane gel as overuse can cause some irritation. So......guess I will slack off on it and try not to do to much til next week. With the weather we have been having it gives me a good excuse to stay in but am so hopeful that next week I can get out some and walk.

Some of you have asked for pictures. They are coming, just need to take the time to do it but promise I will.

Hope everyone has had a good "hump" day. One week from today is Christmas Eve.

Thank you for your love and prayers.....I Love You ALL

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me" Mike

I Love Tuesday mornings

2008-12-16T19:31:00.003-05:00

Friends,

Happy Tuesday! I love Tuesdays. For those of you who know me well know that Tuesdays start at IHOP with our men's bible study group. I have missed it for 5 weeks now and today I got to go back. Donnie picked me up and Wayne brought me home..it was great!

My day did start a bit tough tho...about 2:00am was up feeling some pressure and we ended up flushing my catheter. There was no blockage but it felt funny and honestly I got a little bit paranoid fearing another episode was starting. Back in bed around 3:00, I fell asleep and everything was and is still OK. I do feel some discomfort and tenderness but have attributed it to having this cath for 5 weeks now. Actually tomorrow will be the 5 week anniversary.

Managed to do a load of laundry and prepared dinner again but that pretty much does me in. I am still sorta amazed as to how little strength and endurance I have. Hopefully next week I can start some walking and getting stronger? Did I tell ya'll I lost some tonnage...20+ lbs. I hope I don't find 'em again. Would be nice to lose about 20 more and go into summer about 50 lbs less than last year.

I trust your Christmas shopping is almost done. I think mine is but then again I didn't have anything to buy. B love Christmas and loves shopping and it works for me.

Time to settle in for the night now, do some TV and think about what tomorrow will bring.

Please continue to pray for all those who are sick and hurting, the homeless and hopeless, for those away from their homes and families. Pray for our children and for each other. Thank You..... I Love You ALL

"Thank you Lord for Your blessings on me" Mike

Monday Monday

2008-12-15T15:28:00.002-05:00

Friends,

When I wrote the title down above..."Monday Monday" it reminded me of the song by the Mommas and Papas. How wierd is that! Yesterday was a great day, got out and did church and got to see alot of folks I hadnt seen in weeks..it was real good seeing everyone. Many hand shakes and hugs and reminders of how much I have been prayed for.

Today has been OK, feeling a little pressure in my cath but the flow is OK and so I don't think anything is wrong? It makes a big difference when I use the small bag -vs- the bigger one. One more week to go.

Got the dreaded hospital bill today, one of 'em atleast. I wont tell ya how much it is but I could buy 30 cars like my first one I got in 1971. Praise the Lord for good insurance!

No new news today, hand is still the same and everything else is status quo for now. I am tired and think I might have done a bit too much yesterday...still don't have all my strength back.

Hope it is a good day for everyone. Thank you for sharing this journey with me. I LOVE YOU ALL

"Thank You Lord for Your blessings on me"

Mike

Sunday, December 14th

2008-12-14T09:39:00.003-05:00

Friends and Family,

Today is an exciting day....I'm going to church today for the first time in several weeks. Don't have to leave for an hour yet and I'm already dressed and ready to go. A part of me feels this will be an emotional day....back to church for the first time in a long time, this afternoon we plan to visit Lisa and her family at the funeral home and pay our respects in the passing of her mother Mary and then tonight, the choir (my choir) is having their Christmas concert. I will certainly miss being a part of it but will accept my role as supporter with joy and gladness. I have told some of you that I feel my struggles now are more emotional than physical. Don't get me wrong, I still feel hindered with the catheter and there are times when it hurts badly but those time are fewer each day. Sleep does not come easy and I am often awake and see the clock changing at 12:00 and everyhour til 4:00..... but then sleep will come and I can get up and see the light of day and rejoice that God has given me one more day to enjoy this journey we call life.

Yesterday I had a wonderful surprise....a visit from Ardy and Michelle Skidmore and Jennifer Hupko. They needed to take care of some Chrysalis business with B and I got to have some company. Before they left we all held hands and prayed....God just keeps showing up in my life in so many unexpected way. Thank you ladies for being God's hands and feet to me and others.

Dean and Rita made it home (to Momma and Daddy's) yesterday...just in time to go to the hospital with Daddy. He was having some pain and difficulty in raising his arms. The docs said it is likely a pulled muscle and gave him some meds and sent them all home. Daddy and I have joked on the phone that the "Raynor Men" are having a hard time lately. (By the way..Dean is my brother and Rita his wife)

Today is my youngest grandaughter's (Mary Katherine) birthday, she is 7 years old. Wish we could have shared it with her and the family but we had a good time two weeks ago and will hope that next year we can celebrate her on her day.

It is only 11 days til Christmas...hard to believe it is here already. We made candy yesterday (I had a very small contribution to that process) and will likely do more this week. We will have to get our gifts to the family in the mail this week as we are not travelling over the holidays.

For all who share this journey with me, thank you again for your support and prayers. It is my sincerest prayer that God may use me to help some others who may face prostate cancer. I know some of you have shared this blog with others and that truly blesses me.

I pray you are all well, you are happy and healthy and surrounded by those you love and who love you. May the joys of Christmas fill you hearts and homes. I Love You All....

"Thank You Lord for Your blessings on me...."

Mike

Friday again...

2008-12-12T19:15:00.002-05:00

Friends,

TGIF....for all you working folks. Hope it was a good week and you have plans for a good weekend. Today has been a pretty good day for me. It took me all day but I managed to get the laundry pretty much caught up and prepared a meatloaf for dinner....just had my bath and I am exhausted! I hope to be able to get out some next week and start working on my strength and endurance...I get tired pretty easily.

My stomach is all healed up as far as I can tell, atleast on the outside. I still dont do alot of stretching but am sure that too will come in time. Finally broke down and called the doc for something to help me sleep and help me it did...slept good last nite and plan on it tonight too.

I continue to be surprised by God showing up in so many ways and places. Cards and calls continue to bring joy in my life and remind me of how good I do have it. For those of you who post comments here, thanks...I love seeing them too.

Guess it is about time to finish up and settle in to see what is on nighttime TV. The hand is better I think but typing alot gets it all riled up.

I hope all of you are having a wonderful and joyous holiday season. I am so thankful for the reason for the season and for so many wonderful people who call me friend...thank you.

Pray for all those who are sick and hurting, for the homeless and for each other. I Love You

"Thank you Lord for Your blessings on me" MR

Just taking another deep breath.....

2008-12-11T06:02:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Sorry I did not get a post done yesterday....just was not as good a day as I had hoped it would be. I suspect you may have guessed, the catheter DID NOT come out. Initial indications from the cytogram was there were no leaks in the bladder at the surgical site, but looking real close, like doctors are obviously trained to do, there was one very tiny spot there. I told myself I was not going to get excited about the prospect of having it finally removed once and for all but in honesty I guess I did. It is no longer a physical struggle for me but more of an emotional struggle. Donna said to me a few weeks ago after church, "it's tough being tough isn't it".....I'm thinking you are right Donna! I have my little melt downs, actually 3 of 'em yesterday. I have got to start living my life WITH this catheter and not allowing it to be my excuse for not living life wide open, the way I used to be. Yesterday we went for the x-ray, came home for a rest, went to see Doc Polsky and then a haircut and then for something to eat and then home. I was exhausted but I did it and today, in just about an hour, Donnie is gonna pick me up and we are gonna meet Jerry and have breakfast together. Everyone is so supportive and caring and I am so grateful for all of you and your prayers. Talked with Daddy last night, they were anxious to know what the doc said and when I told him, he got upset too and apologized for not being here to support me. My Daddy said he just wished he could reach out and touch me......of course that sent me into emotional overload. They have so much going on with themselves and other family members who have been hospitalized and I know the trip here would be a huge drain on them and I'm OK with them not coming. Dean and Rita are coming to visit them this weekend and I hope that will take some of their focus off me and on enjoying them.

There is not a day goes by that I don't get a card or a call or someone will touch my hand and say we are praying for you. That means more than I can begin to express here. It is only because of your support that I am doing as well as I am now. I know God will complete the healing he has begun in me, and it will be in His time, not mine...funny how God works that way huh?

Starting today I am gonna do better, I am gonna live life as well as I can right now, catheter and all and I am gonna be confident the each day will get better. I have a catheter but I am CANCER FREE...how good is that! Im sure there are hospitals and hospice centers that are full of people who would trade lives with me in a second. I'm not trading but I will be praying for them.
This week I am going to church and I am gonna go see my choir, that I love and miss so much, in concert with Asbury's choir, present a Christmas program. I know they will be wonderful and hopefully I will get back there with them soon.

I remind myself daily of what Teresa Auten said to me one day...."God doesn't expect you to be successful all the time, He just expects you to be faithful". Teresa, your words, God's reminder have gotten me through some tough times....thank you.

Today I begin my 5th week post surgery and cancer free. I want to live more of today than I did yesterday and hopefully tomorrow I will live even more of it than today. I may get sad, or frustrated or may even cry...but that'll be OK too I suppose.

It's almost 6:30 and my ride will be here soon to take me to breakfast. I hope all of you have a wonderful day. I hope God will show His face to you as he does to me everyday in so many different ways. Please join me in praying for all that are sick and hurting, the homeless and downhearted. Pray for each other and tell at least one person today you love them. If you know of a brother struggling with prostate cancer, please tell them about this blog or give them my number and tell them to call me anytime. Know that I love you all and thank you for sharing this journey with me......
"Thank you Lord for Your blessings on me"

Mike

Tuesday, Day #27

2008-12-09T09:00:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Happy Tuesday, day number 27 in this journey. Yesterday was my day with the ortho doc to see what is going on with my left hand. Well, I guess my self diagnosis was wrong and the doc says the ulnar nerve is damaged but not because of attempts to start a new I.V. He say this type injury occurs most in folks who are in bed alot. He says that laying propped up on your elbows or using your elbows to manuver in bed. I reckon I fall in that category as the surgery left my stomach muscles too sore to use to pull myself up. Anyway, I have a topical steroid cream and a steroid pack to take over the next six days and a pad to wear over this nerve area of my arm. Can't really tell any difference yet but am hopeful it will get better soon.

Had a good day yesterday and slept pretty good last night too. Maybe I have just learn to live with this catheter? I am hopeful it can be removed tomorrow but refuse to get amped up about just in case it doesn't happen.

Looks like it is gonna be a rainy day in Charlotte today? Good thing I didn't have plans to work outside today huh?

Remember to pray for all those who are sick and hurting, pray for each other too. Thank you for your prayers for me and mine....and for taking this journey with me...you're the best!

I Love You All................ "Thank You Lord for Your blessings on Me"

Mike

Monday, December 8th

2008-12-08T09:19:00.002-05:00

Hello again Friends and Family,

WoW...slept in til almost 9:00 this morning. If you know me, you know that is way out of character for me but man o man was it good. I feel better this morning than I have in a long time. My hand was hurting so bad yesterday I took some percoset ...... IT WORKED !
Going to the ortho doc this afternoon and am expecting to get a cortisone injection.

Got the Christmas tree decorated this weekend. I was not in much of a mood for it but did contribute some I guess and it is beautiful. Since we are going to be staying close to home for the holidays it would only be right to have a tree.

Preacher Rick came for a visit yesterday too. I had the chance to talk to him about my issues with the Faith -vs- Fear thing. He has preached and I have read and understand that faith and fear cannot live in the same place, I have struggled with it alot lately too. My fear of facing the pain I did when blood clots were obstructing my catheter, left me doubting my committment to my faith. I think I got a better grip now on what the real issue is. Fear is OK and actually quite normal, fear of pain or of danger.... facing that fear with faith is the part that matters most. I think now I understand that I can face that fear, the fear of pain or suffering or loss with faith that God will get me through it! I am still trying to get my head wrapped all the way around it but for now, I feel much better about it.

I think one of the greatest blessings I have gotten through this is that I may one day be able to help a brother going through prostate cancer treatments. Can't believe there is much I have not experienced?

I have no new news to tell you about except that today is another beautiful day and I feel better today than I have in a long time....God is sooooooooooooooo good to me.

Will let everyone know what the doc says today, please pray he can fix this old hand. Wednesday is the day I hope to get rid of the catheter but am not thinking on it too much so I won't have to be disappointed again.

I hope it is a great Monday for all of you. Thank you for sharing this journey with me, it means more than I could ever express in words. Pray for all those who are sick and hurting and for each other.

Merry Christmas everybody.......I Love You All

"Thank You Lord for Your Blessings on Me"

Mike

TGIF 3 weeks and 2 days past surgery

2008-12-05T10:06:00.002-05:00

Hello Friends,

Hope all is well with your and yours....sorry I was in a whiny mood yesterday but am better today. Slept really good (percoset is a great drug). Is a beautiful day today in Charlotte.

Yesterday I recieved a package in the mail....my blue ribbon pins and a roll of embroidered blue ribbons. My friend Ginger in Ohio sent me a cap with a blue ribbon embroidered on it and when I get around to it am gonna get a new picture on here.

By the way, I can tell many of you have been praying for me to feel better emotionally. I woke this morning with a new attitude and willingness to "stretch" out a bit even with my little friend...so, THANK YOU. Was told there might be some emotional stuff to deal with so I think it is safe to say I got to that point, good news is, I am cruising right on past it now!

No big plans for the weekend, B cancelled her trip to Florida to see her family. I encouraged her to go, that I would be OK but she wouldn't feel right leaving and if I got into trouble with a blockage or something....well, you know. I am thinking there is some christmas tree decorating in my future over the next coupla days? I can do anything from eye level to knee level...the rest is out of my reach limits!

I honestly dont have any real news. Things are staying pretty consistent right now. My bladder is healing and there has not been any blood in my urine for 4 days now. At the entry point (try to word it delicately) of my catheter there is some blood and minor irritation. A couple of "daubs" of some lidocaine gel usually does the trick. Hand is still bad but have an appointment with the ortho doc on Monday.

Time to go for now I reckon. As you continue to pray for me and my family, please lift up ALL those who are sick and hurting today, the homeless and helpless. Thank you all for caring and sharing and loving me.
I love you too !

" Thank You Lord for Your blessings on me"

Mike

Ready, Set, ........DON'T GO !

2008-12-04T16:06:00.002-05:00

Friends,

Well, today was the day, after 22 days with this catheter I was finally going to be emancipated. Went to the hospital for my second cystogram and then to the doc where I hoped to leave my little friend behind. DIDN'T HAPPEN ! Seems there is still a small area at the base of my bladder that has not healed yet. To say I am disappointed would be a gross understatement. It seems it has become more of a mental and emotional struggle now. The physical pain lessens everyday and is manageable. The struggle of dealing with my limitations with this appendage I have following me around get more and more difficult with each waking minute.

OK...done venting for awhile. Please continue to keep us in your prayers. B has had to cancel a trip to Florida and her nephew's birthday party. I said I'd be alright but she won't think of leaving now. The docs say it will heal and I will be OK but it is taking time....nothing has gone according to plan and I am beginning to think planning anything is an excercise in futility.
Good news is, the healing process is working and I am cancer free....what a blessing THAT is.
I have my friends and family who love me so much and while Im pretty sad and even a bit pissed off right now, I am so blessed and so fortunate.

My hand has given out again so I can stop whining in this message. Know I love you and appreciate you so much. Please continue to keep me and all who are sick and hurting and their families in your prayers. You are the greatest !

"Thank you Lord for Your blessings on me" Mike

Tuesday, December 2nd

2008-12-02T08:10:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Good "frosty" morning to all. Sorry I did not get around to posting anything yesterday...it was not a real good day. Had to have my catheter irrigated again but was no big deal. I do get anxious about it and tend to fear the worst is yet to come but it worked fine and I was spared any great discomfort. I have struggled lately with where to put the fear that wells up inside me just thinking about how bad it hurt before. I have read and have heard Preacher Rick say that faith and fear cannot occupy the same place. I know my faith is real but I know too my fear is real. How can I say that I have faith in God to heal me and that everything will be OK and in the next breath say I am afraid I am going to have an episode of such horrible pain. I have prayed for an answer and some understanding but it is not a clear picture for me yet........

The steri-strips that covered my incisions have all fallen off and most of the scabs are gone too, I have some pretty good scars on my belly now. I have said it will take alot of Coppertone to get them covered up this summer! Showers and dressing are getting easier now too as I have gotten into my routine and know what must be done and in what order. I don't know why but my skin is so very dry now. Once my belly heals completely I want to take a bath with some good ole baby oil and get good and slicked up. Hopefully that won't be as long as it has been?

Today I missed another bible study with my brothers at the IHOP. I was so looking forward to it today but am not comfortable taking this catheter bag into a restaurant and the leg bag that is very easy to conceal is just not comfortable. So, I will look forward to next week.

The choir's Christmas Program is in less than two weeks now. The music is beautiful and Cheryl has worked so hard on it but I will be missing it too. I have always said..."if ya don't practice, ya don't play". I have not been able to practice and this late in the game I can never learn it well enough to sing with them. I have every intention of being there listening though.

Yesterday I spent some time on some Prostate Cancer Awareness web sites. I have ordered some things for me and some things to share with others too.

Am thinking some cheesy grits sound good for breakfast this morning. Something nice and warm as I am cold so much of the time now it seems. At last check, I had lost over 20lbs since going into the hospital. Wasn't the best way to lose it but am glad I did and hopefully will keep it off.

Think I am done for this posting...yea, the hand is still numb. I may try to get in to see my ortho doc this week and maybe a shot of cortisone will fix it?

Thank you again for all your prayers. Please continue to remember me and all those everywhere who are sick and hurting. I have seen alot of treatments and had alot of medicines over the past 3 weeks but NONE have had a greater effect on me than PRAYERS !

I Love You All.....thank you ..... and Thank You Lord for Your blessings on Me.

Mike

Sunday Afternoon

2008-11-30T16:37:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

WoW....what an amazing week it has been. Honestly, all the days and night have run together for me. Two trips to the ER and an additional OR visit and 2 days in the hospital. I can only say now that I am blessed to be home and thankful the pain I suffered has subsided. I cried out to God many times and know now that so many of you called out to God and lifted me up...thank you.

It seems blood clots have been the culprit that sent me back to the hospital and to surgery again. My surgeon's partner Dr. Kram was so good to me/us and made life bearable when I thought I could take no more. I am still passing some clots, very much smaller and painlessly.

Thanksgiving Day was a day my family has looked forward to for so long. Turns out I spent it in the hospital but my wonderful family, my sons Chris and Patrick and their wives and children brought their personal T-Day wishes to me in my hospital room. It filled my heart with joy and gratitude and my eyes with tears..they are such good kids. Their T-day dinner was chicken wings 'cause they wanted to wait til I could come home for our real Thanksgiving dinner. I was discharged about noon on Friday and that evening we sat at my grandmother's drop leaf table filled with a bounty of food. Again, I was so full and even said I could not begin to ask a blessing on the meal 'cause I knew I would be crying.

God is so good and has been so good to me. The pain was almost unbearable and I cried a river of tears in agony but know now, I am so blessed and have so much to be thankful for.

Tomorrow is when I was supposed to return to the doc to have this catheter removed and a cystogram to insure the surgical connection between my bladder and urethra is intact. I am not sure that either of those things will happen?

I hate to continue to complain about my hand but it is still no better. Numbness and pain are constant in my left hand and I suspect I will be visiting my ortho doc to see what we can do about it.

It has been a good afternoon to bundle up and remember all the things we have to be thankful for. Today, a wonderful church friend weathered the rain and brought me a small gift.... a blue ribbon lapel pin. Just as the pink is for breast cancer survivors and awareness, the blue is for prostate cancer. What a priviledge it will be to wear it.

For all of you who are sharing this journey with me, thank you.....I love you for caring about me and loving me and my family. Some of you have spent hours in the emergency room this week and others still in my room, assuring me " it'll be OK". I have seen God in your faces and His touch in your hands....thank you.

I hope to give you another update tomorrow...til then, may God bless you richly.

I Love You All "Thank You Lord for Your blessings on me"

Mike

Home At Last

2008-11-28T13:10:00.001-05:00

Home Sweet Home....we arrived at 12:30pm. We will have our Thanksgiving Meal this evening.

Love to All...B

Thanksgiving Update

2008-11-27T22:57:00.003-05:00

Happy Thanksgiving. Mike is still in the hospital. We got him out of bed this morning and his catheter became blocked again. When this happens he is in excruciating pain. Not fun for me either. Anyhow, they had to remove it and install another (install sounds better than insert).

They will try again in the morning to get him out of bed. The doctor will be present when this happens, my hope is that if it becomes blocked with the doctor there, it will not escalate to excruciating pain. If it does become blocked they will take him to the OR at noon for the scope procedure again.

Love to All,
B

News from B

2008-11-26T22:18:00.002-05:00

It's late Wednesday evening, Mike is in the hospital. Here's what happened. Late Tuesday afternoon we started seeing blood in the catheter tubes. We watched....at about 9pm we realized that the catheter was blocked. We did our best with our limited resources to clear the tube, we were not successful. So to the hospital we went.

They cleared the catheter and were preparing to send us home..this was at about 2am. When I noticed a large amount of blood in the tubing. Within about 15 minutes he was in excruciating pain. They could not clear the blockage this time. They were communicating with the urologist through out. At 2:25ish the decision was made to take him to the OR. The urologist arrived in about 15 minutes, the OR team was there in about 20 minutes.

They went in with a scope to see what was going on. His bladder had a large blood clot, which they cleared. Where his urethra was reattached to the base of his bladder is still healing and had a small area seeping. The doctor has assured us that he will be fine, this was just a little set back. The doctor was very pleased with his healing so far. Said it is just a slow process. (this was not the original surgeon, he is out of town for the holiday) He also told us that this type of bleed is very rare he had only see it 2 times in his career.

Again, Mike is going to be fine. Our hope is to be home mid-day on Thanksgiving.

Please continue to pray for continued healing.

Love to All B

Glass Half Full

2008-11-24T11:31:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

I trust you all had a great weekend, a blessed Sabbath and a good first day back to work if you are there yet. My day started kinda early again. After retiring early, worn out from watching both my favorite football teams lose yesterday I was awakened about 1:00am with some pretty significant discomfort. A quick check of my catheter bag showed I had not voided anything in over 5 hours and had some spotting on the front of my "tidy-whitey" boxer briefs. 20 minutes later we are on the way to Lake Norman Regional Hospital Emergency Room. Mary Ann was the nurse and in less than 10 minutes she had evaluated the problem and remedied it. A blood clot had formed in the catheter and blocked the flow from my bladder. One good squeeze of what looked like a turkey baster and the dam broke and the flood waters came rushing through....ahhhhhhhhhh.

I asked later if there was anything I might could have done differently to prevent this kinda thing and she said "no". So......I was already scheduled to see the doc at 8:00am with great expectations of having this companion of mine for the past two weeks (my catheter) sent packing. W e l l ......doc said he was 99% sure everything was OK but wanted to be 100% sure before we removed it. I was sent to Presby Huntersville for a procedure called a cystogram. My bladder was filled with a radioactive contrasting fluid as pictures were taken. An almost immediate response from the radiologist said a leak at the base of my bladder was present as the contrast began migrating away from the base of my bladder where the urethra had been reattached. Pictures in hand and head hanging low, back to the doc where he said my little friend will be "hanging around" for at least another week. I'd be lying sure enough if I said I was not real unhappy and disappointed.

Well, I went to the bathroom and had myself a little pity party, cried a little bit and just got pissed off. Got all that out and turned that page! I have SO much to be thankful for, I had a good breakfast this morning, I have heat in my home and a warm dry bed and more friends and family loving me and praying for me than anyone else I know. It is not the way I had planned to spend Thanksgiving with my children and grandchildren but at least I get to spend it with them, all 10 of us will be together. I don't have cancer in my body anymore either, that is an amazing blessing. God is so good to me and now I feel a little bit ashamed for getting so upset. And, God sent a little reminder to me......hardly got home from all the "stuff" this morning and two church friends are knocking on the door. They came to clean our gutters before it starts to rain today. GOD IS SO GOOD !!!

Time to do little things in preparation of the family coming in two days. I suspect it may take me a bit longer than I planned but I'll make it happen. First thing I'm gonna do is finishing filling up my cup that I have had on my chair side table all week. It was half empty this morning.....now it is half full and I am gonna go finishing filling it up!

Thank you ALL for your love and prayers for me and my family....and THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME!
Mike

Saturday

2008-11-22T09:14:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Hope everyone got a chance to sleep in this morning and feels great....I slept pretty good and feel wonderful this morning...it's beautiful outside, sunny but cold and I am cancer free...now there is a enough reason for celebrating all day long.

Hopefully I will wake up only two more mornings with this catheter as I see the doc on Monday. Today some possible options for what I will do for the possibility of incontinence was the topic of discussion after breakfast. Call me crazy but I feel that problem will become a "no problem" very soon....I just have a positve feeling about it. In any event, there are lots of options available.

Tomorrow is Sunday and I would love to think I could go to church but am kind of afraid. There are lotsa steps to manage and I know there would be alot of hugs and hand shakes and as much as I love you all, I don't want to get a bug right now.

I woke in the night last night and realized I was about to sneeze...I freaked! I know it was gonna hurt so bad and it really scared me but after 3 quick "achoo's", I went back to sleep....no big deal at all, didn't hurt a bit! Is amazing what kinda stuff can get into your head sometimes huh?

Well, think it is about time to begin the shower routine and get ready for the day of sports TV.

I continue to see God is so many different places and faces .... He is not an amazing god, He is THE Amazing God !!!!

Have a wonderful Saturday, tell someone you love them and pray for all those who may be sick and hurting today. Thank you for all your prayers for me..... I Love You All

"Thank you Lord, for Your blessings on me" Mike

2008-11-21T15:38:00.003-05:00

Friends,

Is about for all your working folks to pack it in for the week, you've earned a great weekend. As you saw from my earlier post it was an early start for me today. I did get in a little walk around the block, first time all the way around...I was so tired when I got back. Today was another big milestone for me....(WARNING: yes, I am still a boy!!) I got to spend some time in the bathroom reading....YEEE HAAA. I've been waiting for a week.

I also found some pretty interesting stats today that I want to share. Did you know that over 186,000 men will be diagnosed with prostate cancer this year and over 28,000 death will occur this year? Prostate cancer is the leading cause of death in our country for men. Men, buck up and schedule those physicals and ladies, nag you men til they do it! My oldest son is only 32 years old but I am already on him about getting his physical and have his PSA (prostate specific antigen) checked. Yea, I know, doc will say you don't need to worry about it til you reach 45-50 years old BUT - now we have a family history!

Our church family continues to pour blessings on us. Meals have been prepared and delivered everyday. Our Emmaus community has also been sending their support in posted comments and emails. Just as I said many times, God will show up and show off -- He surely has !!!

I hope you all have a great weekend. Am sure I will be hanging close to home and staying in to stay warm. About 33 shopping days left til Christmas.... I only need one.

I Love You ALL so much and thank you from the bottom of my heart.

"Thank you Lord for Your blessings on me"

Mike

2008-11-21T06:50:00.002-05:00

Good Friday Morning Friends,

Ain't it great to be alive on a beautiful, crisp fall morning? Actually my morning started about 3:15, just couldn't sleep for some reason so decided to get up and see what wonderful things the world has to offer today.
Again, I am overwhelmed with the love and support of so many people. I say with a great degree of certainty that God has smiled alot lately seeing his children taking such good care of one who is struggling just a bit.

I think I get stronger each day, but each day has it own set of challenges too. I have a catheter and while it is not painful, it is a hindrance to many normal routines. I call it my "purse" now and when I go out or if we know we are having company, I will put my purse in one of those "environmentally conscious" type grocery bags to hide it. Seems to work for now. If all goes well and as planned it will be gone before lunch on Monday. YEE HAA

One wound site is still seeping some (there was 6 incisions). I was thinking it would be all healed up by now but it is being a bit stubborn. It happens to be the same site where my drain was. The drain was removed on Monday morning and the doc said it'll close up on it's on.....well, it's taking it's own sweet time about it.

Did some online shopping yesterday too....shopping, not buying. How do you think I would look in a pretty light blue cap with a light blue ribbon on it? Darn shame they won't have some of them on sale a week from today when many of the otherwise sane people I know, go temporarily insane in shopping malls.

I know there are others lying in hospital rooms all over the world right now, just as I was a week ago. I pray for them to be renewed and restored, healed and blessed in the same ways I have been. Thanksgiving will have a very special meaning for me this year. I can tell you without a doubt, I will never make it through our dinner blessing without losing it. Know what though, it's OK.

Hands are almost completely numb again now, gotta cut this edition off. Thanks again for all you do for me and mine. No days goes by that you do not make me smile and or cry..... I LOVE YOU ALL.

Know I am praying for you too.......... Thank you Lord for Your blessings on me ! Mike

Thursday Part 2

2008-11-20T15:09:00.003-05:00

Friends,

Any guesses on what was for dinner last nite? Actually it was salmon, sauted asparagus and risotto w/parmesan cheese....Thanks Teresa, it was great. Today has certainly been my biggest day yet. Got out and took a walk but realized that I am certainly NOT close to full strength. It was great to be out tho....

The more I have thot about this Q&A thing, the less appealing the idea became so.....I guess I will wait to see what questions may come up and I will do my best to describe how it applies to me.

I have learned more about my body in recent weeks than I knew in all my previous life. I was one of those people, not just men but everyone, that did'nt know there is actually a prostate cancer awareness ribbon just like for breast cancer awareness. It is a pretty light blue and you can be assured I will be sporting one soon. Why do think we didn't know? I cant say for sure but am gonna say I think it is because we "boys" dont like sharing things like that...makes us look weak! Brothers, GOD does not make mistakes and we are just a part of something much bigger than ourselves! Man, I gotta change channels or I know I will get preachy.

My hands, especially my left, remain very weak and my left hand has alot of pain too. I am told it is not that unusual. I can cough today without the fear I will cause my stomach to explode with all 6 incisions coming apart. I did feel like a sneeze was coming on yesterday and did everything I could think of and went through every gyration I knew to suppress it -- it worked !

It's 3:30 in the afternoon now. Time to move about a bit more maybe. Thanks for visiting with me today. Oh yea...wieghed today after my shower...I am 35 lbs lighter than I was last week at this time. Doc told me he forced more fluids than I could have possibly been able to drink....think it's a safe bet I have gotten rid of most of it !

Please continue to pray for me and my family, thanks for your love and support. Til next time....

Thank you Lord, for your blessings on me, Mike

T-Day is only one week away !

2008-11-20T08:50:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

Woke up this morning and realized that I experience these flashes, moments when I feel perfect....no pain, no soreness, no discomfort and then it passes again to a feeling of being just less than perfect and then again in a few minutes or few hours I will have that "perfect" feeling again. I believe those "special moments" will begin to come closer together.

Had a great dinner last night, was the first meal that actually had some defined taste in over a week. Our friend Teresa came over, fixed the whole meal and served it...it was great. Bet cha wonder what it was? Maybe I will tell ya later and let cha just guess for now...

Preacher Rick visited too and brought news of a gift from the church, specifically the United Methodist Men. I continued to be blown away by the way God shows His face in my life. When leaving for the doc yesterday I commented how I wished I had had the time to get up leaves and clean the gutters on the house. I know in time I will get to it and it'll be OK. Rick told me it would be taken care of and someone will be coming in a day or two to take care of it for me/us. Again, I was moved to tears. GOD IS SO GOOD !

Goals for today are getting to the mailbox and back by myself and sorting through a giant pile of mail that has accumulated over the past week or so. I am gonna do that little Q and A thing here later too.

I believe there is a bowl of Cheerios in my immediate future now. It's a beautiful day outside. I hope I never live long enough to take for granted one second of this blessed life I live.

Later friends.......... Thank you Lord, for you blessings on me ! MR

Staple Remover.

2008-11-19T15:04:00.002-05:00

Wednesday afternoon and a week ago about this time I suppose the docs were stapling the holes in my belly? Today was the day there were due out and I dreaded it since yesterday. I had this vision of the same kind of staple remover that sets on the desk here beside me would be what they were using --NOT !! Turns out they were much like a little pair of scissors and everyone one came out perfectly and more important - PAINLESSLY

Didn't get to see the doc today tho'...seems he got caught in a surgery that ran over and we needed to wait or reschedule. With the way I messed up things last week with my issues, I knew I wasn't gonna be complaining. If I were him tho, would make a note to self.."no more surgeries on Wednesdays"!

God continues to show Himself in many ways and places....another stack of beautiful cards in the mailbox today. Thank you all so very much.

Tomorrow I think I am gonna do a little Q and A thing on here and tell ya about some of the little things I've learned in a week and that you just may be wondering about. If you got any questions, fire away....but don't ask if you dont want me to tell ya !

Have a great night, continue your prayers for me (please), for sick folks everywhere and for each other.

I Love You ALL.... "Thank you Lord, for your blessings on me" Mike

One week anniversary

2008-11-19T07:18:00.002-05:00

Friends and Family,

It's just after 7:00am on Wednesday morning, November 19th...one week ago about this same time I was being wheeled down a hallway and into an operating room. Sure wish I could remember more about my arrival in the room there, I so wanted to see the robot they were going to use for the procedure. There is a nice picture of it and my docs located in a few places around the hospital but would have been neat to see it up close and personal.

Yesterday was a good day. I am trying to set goals for each day and increase them each day aswell. Yesterday's goals were to walk to the mailbox and to fold the clean laundry while sitting. Sounds easy enough huh? Didn't get either one of 'em done! Today I got up feeling ambitious and made some jello. Was the only thing I got to eat in the hospital that was any good at all. Any one who knows me knows how much I love to eat but since coming home, I have almost no appetite and nothing tastes like it is supposed too. Have been told it is a reaction to some of the meds or possible anesthesia and will pass. Good news is maybe I can lose a few pounds in the process.

Today is gonna be a big road trip for me too...going back to doc to get the staples out. I have never had a problem with needles or I.V.'s or giving blood or anything like that til last Sunday when it took four nurses, six tries to get a new I.V. port opened and now I am so not wanting it to hurt anymore. That you can count as my first little "whine" and yes, there will be more I'm sure before this chapter in my life is done.

My daddy came home from hospital yesterday too. For those who might not have gotten the word, while I was still in C.C.U. last Friday, they were taking Daddy to the hospital with chest pains and shortness of breath. They kept that little secret from me til Saturday and told me once I had made the turn to pain controlled recovery. Turns out he has some gall bladder issues and test results, including a stress test indicate he is OK for now. I felt pretty helpless and still do, my brother Dean in Texas was torn as to what he should do with Daddy and brother in the hosital in two different cities 4 hours apart and a day's travel for him. My sister Kim and some Uncles and Aunts kept us updated and informed as best they could and for now...all is well. Daddy and I needed to hear each others voices yesterday and we did talk for a while.

One of the big issues I am having to deal with is all the "stuff" people are doing for me/us. Not a day has gone by in a week there hasn't been a card or cards in the mailbox. Flowers, gift boxes and baskets, phone calls and emails and the kids at church sent me a special gift too. I want to get a picture of it to post on here. It just overwhelms me to tears everyday to see how much I am loved and cared about. It is much easier for me to be on the "givin" side than on the "gettin". Thank you all so very much.

Think I told ya'll yesterday I got some nerve issues going on in my hands and I am hitting the backspace more than any other key right now so I best go and try to do more later. For those who respond here, thanks. I get excited when I see a comment has been posted. Will give you an update after I see doc today. In the mean time, let's celebrate my one week anniversary being cancer free! WOO HOO !!! Love You All

Thank you Lord, for your blessings on Me.... Mike

Home again

2008-11-18T08:46:00.003-05:00

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Friends and Family, Just as I knew and all of you said, I have made it through to the other side and today sit in the same place where I started this blog. There is so much to tell and I want to tell it all but that too will take some time. My physical condition is good I think and meets or exceeds every expectation the doctors have. I cannot do much typing at one time as the nerves in my left hand, specifically the ulnar(check me on that one) was damaged by what I think were I.V. ports. I am confident that too will mend in time. For this entry I do want to tell you about one GIANT piece of good news. The post-op biopsy revealed a greater percentage of cancer than the original biopsy but ALL margin were clear and with the complete removal of my prostate, God has made me CANCER FREE once again.

I have read your cards and emails and felt your prayers and honestly am overwhelmed by it all. Feeling so much love from so many people from literally all over the world is an amazing thing...it has filled me to overflowing more that a few times already. Thank you all.

Think it is time to begin the bath time adventure....please continue to keep me and my family in your prayers.

I Love You All ~~~~~ Thank You Lord, for your blessings on Me ! ~~~~~ Mike

Sunday Update from B

2008-11-16T18:04:00.002-05:00

We are out of ICU and in a regular room. WOO HOO! Mike started on a liquid diet today and is doing great. I think we have reached the top of the hill (or should I say mountain) and it will be down hill from here. Thank you again for your prayers and support.

Saturday Night Update from B

2008-11-15T20:39:00.003-05:00

WOW - what a difference a few hours can make. Mike is doing much better tonight. He took a very small walk this afternoon and sat in a chair for a while this evening. I broke the news about his dad. His dad is doing good and will have more test on his heart on Monday.

Thanks for all of your support, prayers and well wishes.

Update from B

2008-11-15T20:36:00.002-05:00

Nothing has gone as planned. Here is the update:

Wed - Surgery lasted 9 hours (should have been 5). The size and shape of his prostate made it difficult and slow going. He stayed in recovery 4 hours (should have been 1 1/2), his kidney's did not bounce back quickly because of the length of the surgery. Hd was taken to ICU. That night was very tough, they did not have the pain managed well.

Thu - They changed the pain management to a morphine drip with a button where he can give himself more every 10 minutes if needed. This was a tremendous help and the pain management has been good ever since. His urine output is getting better. We got some sleep Thursday night.

Fri - He is still in ICU. He is getting better. All of his blood work and other numbers are good. They are keeping him in ICU to carefully watch the balance of the drainage tube vs. the catheter. I just received word from Mike's brother that they have taken Mike's dad to the hospital with chest pains (I have not told Mike yet.)

Sat - Mike is still in ICU. It has been a rough morning. Mike is nauseous. This is normal. The 3rd day is suppose to be the toughest. The urine output is good, all numbers are where they are suppose to be. We will get him out of bed today and have him try to walk. This will hopefully help with the gas, pressure and nauseous. Mike's dad is in ICU in Kenansville (Mike does not know). He has gallstones and is having irregular heart beat. If Mike is feeling better this afternoon I will tell him.

Please keep praying for us. Feel free to share with those who care and love us

About 12 hours to go now...

2008-11-11T17:30:00.000-05:00

It's Tuesday evening about 5:30 and like they used to say back home...."I'm in the short rows now". For those who may not understand that saying, please just ask someone, it's way to hard to explain here :-)

The pre-op stuff went as planned, give a little blood, do a little X-ray and do ALOT of forms. I suspect THAT part of medical technology will never change?

Show time is 6:00 in the morning and the main attraction is at 7:00. I can honestly say I am not a bit nervous (good thing too as I have 32 oz of Magnesium Citrate in my system).

Seriously, I have had so many good wishes and prayer today and all this past week. Messages on here and cards in the mailbox and text messages. Few things in life are more overwhelming than experiencing the love of other poured out on you. For myself and my Family, thank you all so very much...I love you too.

Today I will turn off of the old road I have travelled for a long time and tomorrow will turn onto a new road with many new sights and adventures in store. What a blessing it is to share this journey with all of you.

As today come to and end, the sun sets and night brings a need to sleep and rest I remember the song Tommie and I sang just a few weeks ago..... " I've a roof up above me, I've a good place to sleep. There's food on my table and shoes on my feet. You gave me your love Lord, and a fine family. And I thank you Lord, for your blessings on me." Amen!

Surgery Eve

2008-11-11T09:42:00.001-05:00

Today is November 11, 2008. I have filled in alot of what my journey has been so far but so much more has happened. Age and confusion cloud some of my memory and I feel I may have even left some good parts out. What I want to do here is try and list some of the highlights in my life, on this journey so far.....

I attended some Emmaus events a couple of weeks ago and several people came to me just to say "we are praying for you Mike", people I had not spoken too in weeks or months, they knew and were praying.

Got a phone call from a man, a friend of a friend, I didn't even know. He wanted to share anything about his experience with prostate surgery that might help me.

A friend at church came up to tell me he had already been down the road I am turning on to and if he could do anything to help, let him know. He offered to let me read his journal.

I have already gotten many cards and notes from people at church, just lending their support and friendship and assuring me I am in their prayers.

Sunday evening at a Chrysalis Event, Chris Westmoreland came up to me, gave me a big ole Chris hug and said "we are so praying for you". He is such a nice guy.

Preacher have been praying for me....Rick, Jimmy Howard, Bob Jack, Gail Montgomery, Bird McCormick, Patience Brumley, Chris W. and others Im sure I dont even know.

Ive been told I am on prayer lists from Beulaville, NC to Ocoee, Florida to Dallas, Texas and countless points in between. Prayer is a mighty powerful thing.

This morning....what an incredible outpouring of love and support. Our regular Tuesday morning breakfast meeting for bible study and prayer....we filled up the who room...14 people - my family of friends were there to pray for me, pray with me, hug me, encourage me and yes, even cry with me. Yes, Donna Stroupe and Ronna Privette and Brenda ALL got up and came to breakfast, just for me ! What a great feeling. It is difficult at times to accept so much love and support. I do much better on the giving side than being on the recieving side. It is just one bright star in a sky full of stars, blessings that God gives me, has given me for no other reason than he just loves me and has put these wonderful people in my life to show it on His behalf.

Later today I go for my pre-op visit with the hospital and begin the "purge". I am so not looking forward to that part but by tomorrow this time, I wont even care !

eeny-meeny-miney-mo

2008-11-11T09:28:00.000-05:00

It was not as simple as eeny-meeny-miney-mo.....I thought and prayed and thought and prayed and finally decided that for me, the best option is surgery, the radical prostatectomy. My prostate and seminal vessicules will be removed during the surgery. It is a decision that my wife and family and friends totally support and once told, my docs agreed they too think it is the best option for me. With my current pathology and age and overall good health condition, it should leave me with the best results. So, one big hurdle is conquered. I felt better immediately after I said the words to the doc, I want to do the surgery. Now, how to make the schedules work. I have already planned a trip to the beach with my sons and grandchildren to fish, we do it every year actually. That was going to be Oct 30th thru Nov 5th and then I was taking Momma and Daddy to Norfolk, Va for a USNavy function for retired personnel that would keep be busy til late on Sunday Nov 9th. So....I asked Dr Polsky's wonderful scheduling person, Jennifer, to set me up anytime Nov 12 or after. Within a few day, Jennifer called to confirm everything was set for Nov 12 at 7:00am at Lake Normal Regional Medical Center in Mooresville. I was so glad, I had a plan and so the clock could start the count-down.

Treatment Options

2008-11-11T09:04:00.000-05:00

Man o Man...it was like a buffet of treatment options to choose from. They ranged from doing absolutely nothing( that is called Watchful Waiting) to the extreme. More techno-eese to learn...HIFU (High Intensity Focused Ultrasound) was one option. Two machines in the country are available for this treatment and one is in Charlotte. Thing is, it is still considered experimental by the FDA and not approved by insurance companies and with a cost of a mere $25,000.00 per treatment, I ruled it out right away. I told B I could have a real nice funeral for less than that...she failed to see the humor I had intended! Cyro procedures were mentioned and work opposite of the HIFU in that it freezes the affected area while HIFU heats it. Radioactive seeding, placing seeds directly into the prostate....I am not a good candidate for that because mine is to enlarged (mine is approx 65cc while most normal prostate glands are 35cc). The every popular radiation treatment....8 1/2 weeks of focused radiation. It would almost certainly kill the cancer cells in the prostate but the downside is that it may damage other areas and/or organs close to the prostate. Another downside to radiation, if future surgery is required in this area it would be difficult. I have analogized it as being like melting a milk carton over something and then trying to peel it off.

I had the opportunity to see a Radiologist/Oncologist, and he too was very honest about the possible side effects of radiation. I made an appointment to go and see my favorite doc, Dr Temple Day ( I just love her). She was patient and caring and gave me as much information as she could but like all the others docs, would not say what she thought I should do. She gave me a hug when I left and assured me it would be OK

Jerry and I were still working every day, between doc appointments and one job we went to was for a Mr Johnston. After a few hours there and some conversation I asked Mr Johnston what he did for a living, what was his claim to fame. He told me that if he had wanted to spend the money on one of them fancy license plates for his car, it would have said " 2 P C Me" I did not get the meaning right away so he told me he was a retired doctor, a urologist. God is still working aint he? I had about 4 days worth of consultation and countless stories about cases of prostate cancer that Dr Johnston had dealt with in a 40+ year career. Like the others, he never told me what I should do, just to take my time, weigh my options and do what was best for me.

1st Doc visit after the diagnosis

2008-11-11T08:41:00.000-05:00

I was able to move up my appointment to Thursday after I had found out on Tuesday. It was a 4:00 appointment and we both went. Doctor Polsky came in with papers, some for me and some he read from. It was the results of the biopsy. There were 5 piece of paper stapled together and the front sheet contained pictures and graphs and lots of "doctor-eese". The word my eyes were drawn to was on the right side, half way down....in bold type and bookended with asterics ***MALIGNANT*** That was the one word on that page that I knew exactly what meant.

Doctor Polsky was so good, so patient and so caring. Im sure he had done this many time but he made me, made us feel that we were special, he cared especially for me and my situation. I guess that was the first of many times God would show his face through others. We talked of options and treatment plans and yes, even had a few more tears, Brenda was not doing well with this thing so far. I left that day with a book, two DVDs and my mind full of more information than I thought I would ever need or want to know about prostates and prostate cancer.

My family knew I was supposed to go to see the doc on Monday so seeing him on Thursday before gave me some time to prepare for how and when I will tell them. I think telling my sons was the most difficult of all. The are both very different men and express their emotions differently. We all handled it well and I did not cry, my greatest fear in having to tell them. The both asked if there is anything they could do, promised to help me/us in any way they could and accepted my reassurance that everything would be OK. Telling Momma and Daddy was hard too but again, I kept it together and the same with brother Dean. I am so lucky to have a family that I know loves me in spite of all my failures and the many times I have disappointed them. My daughters-in-law have called and been supportive and my sister-in-law too. Most times I feel like they are not inlaws at all...they are really family. My inlaws in Florida have called and given their support too. Brenda's Dad Gene is a prostate cancer survivor now. I have finally told them all that we will have no more tears, no sappy stuff and sentimental accounts of days gone by or yet to come. As a matter of fact, I gave Brenda til 10:00 PM on Thursday night to be done with it! NO MORE TEARS !

The Waiting Game Part 1 begins

2008-11-11T08:22:00.000-05:00

What a relief to have that part of this journey over with. Compared to the pain and discomfort so many cancer patients endure, I know mine was tiny...but to me, it was a HUGE thing. While the results of the procedure were still days away, the effects from it began almost immediately. There was blood where blood should not have been. It was not painful anymore but a bit unsettling to see things that to me were just "not natural". The docs and nurses warned me of what to expect and once again, they were right on target. I was normal, my body was responding normally and my reaction to it was pretty much normal too.

The weekend came and went and Monday was a new work day. I had to wait another whole week before I would know the results of the biopsy and see the doctor. With all the advancements in modern medicine and technology it seemed like a long time to wait but I was gonna be patient. On Tuesday, Sept. 23rd Jerry and I were working on a wheelchair ramp at a home off Hwy 115 outside of Huntersville when my phone rang. It was a number I did not recognize but I did answer it. The voice on the other end identified himself as Dr Polsky. After a momentary exchange of greetings and niceties, he began by saying how he did not like calling patients but felt it best to let me know now instead of waiting anxiously for another week that the results were in and I did in fact have prostate cancer. Once again, hearing my name and cancer in the same sentence just seemed impossible. I kept my best manly voice and thanked the doctor and said I would see him in a few days. I walked back to our project and Jerry asked, "what's going on?" I told him, the first person and the first time in my life that I have prostate cancer. Jerry was stilled....took off his cap and wiped his forehead...I dont remember exactly what he said. I know we had alot of conversation the rest of that afternoon but I cant remember any of it right now. The thing I do remember is Jerry stopping right before we left for the day and putting his hand on my shoulder and praying for me.

It was a Tuesday afternoon and tonight was United Methodist Men's meeting and Brenda's circle was feeding us that night. I know I did not want "it" to become a topic of discussion and I did not have the time between work and the meeting to properly tell Brenda either. I decided to keep it to myself. Once the meeting was over I got Rick in the back of the room and told him. I also told him to keep it to himself for the rest of the night as I had not told Brenda yet. He prayed for me right there too. On the way home I knew I needed to tell B so I turned the radio off. That prompted an immediate "what cha do that for?" from B. I told her the doctor had called this afternoon and the results showed I have prostate cancer. Once again, I cannot recall what if any conversation we had that night. I know there were tears and hugs......

Note to Self: Take the valium sooner

2008-11-10T17:29:00.000-05:00

Friday, September 19, 2008 was the appointment for my prostate biopsy. I am not certain but feel reasonable confident that any procedure called "biopsy" has to be associated with discomfort and/or pain. THIS was no exception. I took the prescribed valium about 30 minutes prior to the schedule procedure with an expectation that I would be "loopy" most if not all of the procedure. NOT SO ! Without too many gruesome details let me try to explain what happens. An ultrasound probe is inserted rectally. This is used to give the doctore a picture of where exactly the prostate is located and to mark the sites for tissue removal. Another probe is inserted with a needle to anesthesize the prostate before the biopsy. Probe two removed, probe three enters equipped with some type of mechanism that removes 14 little pieces of my prostate one at a time. It was similar to how the little needle feels when you get your finger pricked at the doctors office or when you are giving blood. The sound right before that little needle stick reminded me of those little toy guns we used to get for a $1 that had the rubber suction tip darts fired from a spring loaded plastic pistol. The valium had NOT worked as I thought it would and I counted down each needle as it fired into my innards. At 7 I realized I was half way there, at 10 I was in double digits and then 12, then 13 and finally the last one. I has sucessfully wiped away the tears before I had to face the assistant who helped me up. I am so thankful for medicine and technology but I pray that is something I never have to go through again. For those of you who have know me for a while and know about the accident I had almost 3 years ago with a nailgun, shooting a nail into my hand....given the choice again in the future as to which I would rather have done, I would have to give it some serious thought!

Oh yea, the valium finally did kick in. We stopped for chinese on the way home, I had a few phone conversations and still do not remember any of it. I am told I can be pretty humorous when under the influence of controlled narcotics. Note to self: TAKE THE VALIUM SOONER NEXT TIME !

Alphabet soup

2008-11-10T17:16:00.000-05:00

In July this year I went in for a routine physical, including a blood work up. My doctor, Dr. Temple Day is just the greatest, I just love her. She made me just through all the hoops and prod and probes and told me that my prostate seemed enlarged and could explain some of my issues with nightime bathroom interruptions for the past 2 years. It is a condition called BPH (benign prostate hyperplasia). Without alarm, she said the blood work and PSA (prostate specific antigen) results would tell us if there is any other issues that need to be addressed. One week later, we got the results of the blood work and my PSA counts had risen from 1.1 the year before to 3.3 now. As a precautionary measure, she suggested it could be a low grade infection and decided to put me on anti-biotic for 3 weeks and then we'd re-test. A month later we did re-test and the PSA count had increased another point. A referral was made to a urologist.

A couple of weeks later I met Dr Stewart Polski for the first time in Huntersville. What a nice guy. He told me all the "stuff" about the prostate, how it works and why it may not work as well sometimes. His recommendation to me was a biopsy. This would tell us if there was cancer in my prostate. He explained how this procedure worked and we made an appointment. I searched on the internet for all and any information I could find and learned that what he had already told me was pretty much what was written on here. We were "on" and I was schedule for my first steps in what has become quite a journey.

2008-11-10T16:58:00.000-05:00

My name is Mike Raynor, I am 55 years old, live in Charlotte, North Carolina and have been diagnosed with Prostate Cancer. Never in my life did I think I would ever use my name in the same sentence with the word cancer. One thing I have learned about cancer, not just mine, is that it is not considerate of age, gender, race or any other "quality" we give ourselves as human beings.

Over the next few weeks and months I am going to try and chronicle my journey in my personal battle with this disease and the consequences associated with treatments options and recovery.

One question I have asked myself is "How does anyone go through this or any other cancer and treatment without faith in God and the support of family and friends?" Many of you have already heard me say that I know God is gonna to show, He is gonna to show off and I AM GONNA BE THE STAR OF THE SHOW ! (And you know how I love being the star of the show)

So, for those of you who share this journey with me, welcome! I am greatful we are here together. Your prayers and good wishes sent my way are welcomed and appreciated more than I can say. I feel blessed to be a part of something that is so much bigger than me.

One thank you I want to give first of all is to Michelle Brachten for pointing me in the right direction to try and get this blog created.

To my family and friends and my family of friends, thank you for loving me in spite of who I am sometime, I love you all !

OK, let the journey begin...................